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Titanic Exhibition!

2012-02-10T12:15:00.004+08:00

Nope, they didn't showcase any Jack and Rose crap during the exhibition... Overall, I enjoyed it, but I thought it was quite short. Spent only about 2 hours in there. I kinda expected it to be more interactive as well.. Lina was such a great company! :)

I seriously love my Mom's camera! It's gonna be MINE! Beautiful helix bridge!

The structure of the ArtScience Museum is so cool!! I don't exactly know how to describe! You got to see it for yourself! The Titanic exhibition is at B2. And from inside, it looks like this!! The center of the "hand" has a water feature.

I'm such a law-abiding citizen that I didn't take any photos in there. I quite like the simulated scenes on the ship. Especially the one of the deck, facing the sea. Imagine being there all alone, just admiring at the stars and hearing the crashing sound of waves. The artifacts were so precious! I am so amazed by that they are preserved so well! This year marks 100 years since the Titanic set off and sank!! Us with all the interesting Titanic facts in our brains! :)

The outside view of the ArtScience museum!

This exhibition showed me class discrimination, courage, ship engineering stuff and mostly importantly, love. I teared abit when I saw a certain quote which went something like this....

"Women and children gets into the lifeboat." This saved my life but also made me loss the most important person in my life(husband). I went back into the ship. If we were to die, we would die together...

Aiyah! Something like that lah! You get the feel!

Uncle Terrence's Birthday!

2012-02-06T00:00:00.000+08:00

A few of us threw a little celebration to Uncle Terrence who we love a lot! :D Jessalynne and Treasa!!! We also took the opportunity to enjoy lok lok and cheap bubble tea! Hehehe.

Birthday boy!!! Ok, more like a man!

Us!! :) He's definitely appreciated by us! Or by me at least!~ Hehehe...

My Interpretation of Rainbow Connection

2012-02-05T22:02:00.001+08:00

The first time I heard Rainbow Connection is when I was supposed to sing it for one of the scenes in NYP's 20th Anniversary musical. When I youtubed the song out, Kermit the frog was singing it. I loved the song immediately.

During my recent night shift, one of my patient who was really ill was admitted. I guess that would be her last admission. I don't know if she has passed away yet. It's so funny though. During her previous discharge which was earlier this week, I kinda regret that I didn't have the chance to have a proper goodbye because she was going home to die. And there, she appeared during my night shift, but at a poorer state. When I called out to her, her eyeballs would just move towards me and then she would close her eyes. She totally could not talk. But I know she's aware of me because when I held her hands, there would be slight movements on her fingers, as if trying to hold onto mine.

On my way home after my night shift, I suddenly thought of Rainbow Connection. Somehow I felt this song was so apt to the above scenario. Then, I googled out "meaning of rainbow connection". There were so many interpretations of the song. Some mentioned the song was about life, some mentioned it was simply portraying the characteristics of Kermit. There I found one which was in sync with what was in my mind...

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"I don't mean to sound morbid, but this song is about death and the afterlife. But in a positive way.

The rainbow connection- Death

Someday we'll find it... The lovers, the dreamers and me- Death is inevitable for all.

What's on the other side? - The afterlife

What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing?

And what do we think we might see? - God, heaven, or whatever is on "the other side", or at least, the questions we ask ourselves about such matters.

Star gazing- Gazing to the heavens, thinking about the afterlife.

Have you been half-asleep and have you heard voices?

I've heard them calling my name- Voices of angels. Unanswered questions about the unknown that has to do with humankind."

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Here's my conclusion of the song:

Why are there so many songs about rainbows? (why do people talk about death?)

And what's on the other side? (how is afterlife like?)

Rainbows are visions, but only illusions (death is sth real, yet we don't know how it's like)

Rainbows have nothing to hide (when we face it, we will face it)

So we've been told and some chose to believe it (we are aware of death)

I know they're wrong wait and see (but some don't believe. But they're wrong)

Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection

The lovers, the dreamers and me (all of us)

Who said that every wish would be heard and answered

When wished on a morning star (are all our prayers to God answered?)

Somebody thought of that, someone believed it (people do believe in God)

Look what it's done so far

What's so amazing that keeps us star gazing (we keep thinking abt afterlife)

And what do we think we might see? (we wonder what's in stored for us)

Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection

The lovers, the dreamers and me

All of us under it's spell (we all continue thinking about it)

We know that it's probably magic (when death happens, still dont know what to expect)

Have you been half asleep, or have you heard voices? (is it a dream or reality?)

I've heard them calling my name (the angels call out to me)

Is this the sweet sound, that calls the young sailors (helping us in navigation)

The voice might be one and the same (God calling out to us)

I've heard it too many times to ignore it (we still get on with life)

It's something that I'm supposed to be

Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection

The lovers, the dreamers and me

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Beautiful... This is so beautiful. Well, it's just another episode of my working life where I see patients off. Whether if she has passed away or not, I know it is a peaceful one.

My First Code B Experience!

2012-01-31T23:46:00.001+08:00

Okay, I gotta blog it out cos it's definitely something worth remembering! So today I was in my cubical priming a drip for my patient when the public announcement announced, "Attention all medical staff. Code B for women's in Wd 42, POA, Bed (I forgot)."

Alright, some background story here. Yes, usually we do get code Bs but it isn't common for women's. It happens to the childrens side quite often. So once I heard women's, my brain started to react. When a code B happens in level 4, our ward is responsible for pushing the defib over.

After the whole announcement, and after absorbing the message, my colleague and I went over together with the defib and also to offer help and support the code B team. Yay to my senior for allowing me to go over. When we were there, we quickly set up the monitoring leads and the doctors were all there shortly after. My colleague started to set up the suction apparatus which was totally fail esp in a panic mode. I tried to help but I wasn't experienced enough to know how to set it up. And I think the last time I set it up was in 2009 when I was a student nurse. Eventually of course it was set up somehow and was just in time ready when the doctors requested for it.

Then someone passed me a pack of blood and asked me to hang it up. In a panic mode, I just went to hang it. And before releasing it into the patient, I realised that I did not check the blood group of the patient. The blood pack wrote "A positive". I had to be very very sure because it would be a nightmare if patient has a blood reaction in the midst of a resus. I shouted to an NM to give me the patient's blood group but she could not find it. Sigh. Then I squeezed my way out as I was obstructing the way. So the blood didn't start.

In the meantime, all the different teams were handling the situation in a tensed yet calm manner. The code B team leader was giving specific instructions. She was super steady! All the things I've learnt in year 3 as a student came to a real life situation. One moment someone said there was no pulse. Then after sometime, a stable BP reading was being read out. Phew!!

I met my APN at the outer part of the circle and I told her about my blood! She then confirmed that they did give me the correct blood. And I need not worry because that isn't as urgent as pt's ABC(you gotta study nursing to know what ABC is. Heh.). Then she said it was too crowded and asked me to go back. And I could not do much too!!

The experience was totally cool!! I don't know but I like the adrenaline rush and I like to be so kaypo. Hmmm, should I venture into that aspect? Well well. Will see how. But I'm so sad I didn't do much cos I am so inexperienced! I hope one day I will know everything and do things confidently and calmly!

So that's sums up my very first code B experience!

PS: Code B is Code Blue, and all medical staff are alerted when patient has a cardiac arrest. Just dont wanna get googled out.

And oh, I hope the patient is alright! I don't really know the outcome.

My Chinese New Year

2012-01-25T11:48:00.001+08:00

I don't exactly like it when everyone has a camera and I gotta wait for them to send the photos to me or share on facebook before I can have a good look at the photos and share them myself. So, only lousy shots from my Mom's camera. Btw, she owns a Canon S95. I am so in love with it! Hehee, I'm gonna take over this camera I dont care!!

My house is a boring place! Hehehe.

Something that I can't escape from. House chores :/ I think I'm getting better every time I practice! :D

The busiest masterchef! :D

The brother who slogs around.

Being disappointed with the angpow collection. I don't know~ All these does not seem to impress me as much as before.

Preparing to lo yu sheng!!!

So that was the first day of CNY. I spent my 2nd day first visiting St Joseph's home! I was good to see some of the residents around. My heart really goes all out to them.

After that, I made a special visit to Helen and Aunty Jen! These kind of situation/encounters makes me wanna work more!

It's off day today and back to work tomorrow!! I can't wait to go back to work actually! Wheehee!! Hmmm, now that CNY is over, the next thing I'm looking forward to is my date with Lina followed by BBSS choir concert followed by my mission trip! Whee!

Time to wake up my idea?

2012-01-22T16:51:00.001+08:00

This morning, Dad and I went to explore one of the soho show rooms nearby. Please note that we were only there to explore and see-see. And that opened up my mind a little and started me thinking.

Well, all I could think of was my dream home in Keppel Bay. Hehe. But I just gotta accept the fact that neither my parents nor myself can afford it. Hmmm, at least the one we viewed today was an acceptable price range. But come to think of it, it's only about 50sq metres? That's pathetically small. Prolly the size of my current living + dining room. Urgh, property prices are so high nowadays! What is gonna happen to me?!

I'm not sure if I will have a spouse or not. But if I don't get married, I can't own a HDB till I'm 35?! If not, I got to go private which will take my whole life to pay back the loan. Seriously, I don't know what lies ahead of me.But thanks to today, I got my mind set right.

I'm going to save like crazy and one day, I will be able to afford somewhat my dream home :) Heh, reminds me of the Sue character I played in Homecoming.

"Earn more money, earn my keep. One day I'm gonna be very very rich!"

Oh, Malcolm is back!!

Fun-packed week

2012-01-19T14:28:00.001+08:00

I've been so busy with work and enjoying myself that I didn't really have time to blog! But actually, blogging isn't exactly part of my lifestyle already but I must force myself to blog! :D So that I can look back and remember all the crap I have done!

On Sunday, church had a walk along Alexander area. Woo! I managed to sweat out a lot!

After that, I went on my own to explore Berlayer Creek, a new mangrove walk towards the sea. I was disappointed though. Knowing that it is a mangrove board walk, one would be expecting to walk above but not beside the mangrove itself! And it was covered by all the trees :/ Maybe it's a good jogging place for residents nearby.

Towards the sea :) I always love the sound of crashing waves!

And suddenly, I thought I was in paradise... There were a bunch of new housing estates! The promenade looks so good! Ahhh.

Definitely one of my dream home. I would love to wake up to the sound of crashing waves one day... But you know, it's only my dream :/

After that I headed back to bathe and went for Valerie's choir concert! Wooo! I miss being part of a choir! I'm glad I will have the chance this April! :D

Monday was Treasa's birthday and we went to USS! Woohoo! My 2nd time there and I managed to sit the transformer ride TWICE! The effects were awesome! I was too afraid to wear the 3D glasses actually. Everything seemed so real!

Car car! See how the dancers pose and see how I pose. Hahaha!

Treasa was DYING to have a photo with the KungFu panda mascot and FINALLY! She had the chance!! What a great birthday gift to her. It was so special because we were talking about it while leaving the place and suddenly it appeared from the room!

Took with Frankinstein too! He was so naughty! I was a bit scared cos he seemed so real and then he placed his hand over my head/face!!

Had dinner back at Vivo City with some others! The happy birthday girl! :D

US! :))))

Had a great time but was sooooo tired!

Alright now I need to get into some serious CNY business! Mom has already dedicated some housework to me. Sigh... Just when I thought I could take a nap :/

Wicked!!

2012-01-09T18:26:00.000+08:00

FINALLY I WATCHED WICKED IN SINGAPORE! Ok, time to share photos! :D Had the chance to stay in MBS! It made the whole experience better! The city view! We were at the 44th level.

Took a swim! Wheehee! Finally I got to swim at the highest swimming pool in the world!(i think). It was really windy which made it really colddddd. Brrr!

Then we took some time to dress up for the musical!!

I was abit disappointed with my seats :( So far!! When we look straight, we are looking ABOVE the top of the stage! And I didn't bring my bino!

Photos with the casting board! Then I realised that Elphaba was played by the understudy. WHY?!?!?! Sunday evening leh :( Trying to find out! Hehe! Oh, we met Jing's friend like coincidentally! It's a small world!

Bought a Wicked T-shirt!!! Okay, I don't know why I am showing the paper bag rather than the T-shirt itself! Haha!

Then we went to Macdonalds to have dinner/supper before going back!! Hehehee. Please watch this awesome video I made :D

The next morning Jing had to go to work so I went to the rooftop to see see more and took this!!!

Brought home what ever that was free as well. HAHAHAA!

So it's back to work today! Boohoo!! Nothing to look forward to anymore!!!!!!!!

Paradise

2012-01-07T11:06:00.000+08:00

My paradise will look like this...

Photo extracted from 300px.

One day more to watching Wicked! Argh! I can't contain my excitement! I have been waiting since I bought the tickets in September last year! Hahaha. I'm really crazy. But I don't know why. Actually I was still alright with the musical after I watched it back in 2008 but when my brother watched it himself some time later, he was telling me that he liked it so much and somehow it spread to me.

Alright, I will definitely share more after watching the musical!! :D

I'm awesome, I know I am...

Being nice does not pay off

2012-01-03T20:31:00.002+08:00

It all started this morning when this particular ex-EN newly turned SN turned up for work and I wonder what job should she be assigned to for the shift. I realised that she had been still doing junior work quite often despite already being promoted for a month. I thought that doing junior work does not do her justice and she ought to be given the chance to take on a Staff Nurse role. I mean, come to think of it, it's a learning opportunity right? She has to step out and learn new things! Not to just stick to being a junior always. I, ME, MARIA BOEY WAS GIVING HER A CHANCE TO LEARN. SEE HOW THOUGHTFUL I WAS?!?!

And she had to take it that I was "jealous" because she had the luxury to be the junior always and people like me don't have the chance to be a junior. She could say things like, "It's okay, you can assign me to do anything. I am alright with it. But someone might be jealous and insist that I need to take charge of patient. But I'm fine with anything.". Eventually she was assigned to be in-charge and she could say this to me: "You happy now? I am in-charge of bed ** to **. I know you are jealous of me cos I was always doing junior work. So you happy now?"

First thing first, I am not jealous if you are doing a junior job because even for myself, I don't feel comfortable being a junior. And what ever I mentioned about you getting a 'higher pay means you have more responsibility' was to make the situation less tense due to your "the-whole-damn-world-is-against-me" reaction. I really was being thoughtful and wanted you to have the opportunity to learn but I was so hurt yet angry by your response.

That's it. If you make any scarstic remarks or anything the next time, I am really gonna snap at you.

Yeah, I know you are damn good alright? What stupid Star Service Award 2011(please! i was partially the one who came up with this award name!). I don't care, seriously! This award was given by sister to ENCOURAGE people and reward them for their diligence and good, genuine service to patients. Not to show it off . Through this, I am really turned off by your attitude and mindset. Hello, the whole world isn't against you alright.

I don't know if I should help you next time as a fellow staff nurse. Should I correct you if you make mistakes? Can I give you advice and all that being 9 months more experienced than you? But one thing is for sure, I am seriously not gonna bother if you do junior or in-charge work. Cos you can't even appreciate my thoughtfulness.

Enough said, I am glad I ain't the same shift as you this week anymore!

So long 2011 and hello 2012!

2012-01-01T00:33:00.002+08:00

I actually already did a "sum up" of 2011 in the following post:
http://baguita.blogspot.com/2011/11/november.html

So right now I am going to write my aspirations for the upcoming 2012!!! I forgot if I made one for 2011 but heck it. Hahaha. I have quite a lot of goals for 2012 actually~

1) To lose weight.
Yes, I am very, very serious about this one. I know people commented that I have slimmed down blah blah but my weight hasn't changed actually. Hmmm, okay maybe it isn't about the weight but I just want to have a healthier intake. I realised I have been giving in a lot to fast food and sweet drinks. I prolly need to allow myself to have fast food only once a month. Yeah, no harm trying, even though I know it's gonna be really difficult. Heh.. And oh! To stop eat and snack less! I'm sure I have the discipline :)

2) To sit for singing exam
Hohoho, and the most difficult part is to sign up for the exam! I shall do it real soon! :) I really hope to pass and just get satisfied with this personal achievement!

3) To be more devoted to work
I still know that I ain't perfect in the things I do in work. I just want to buck up and to be a really good staff. To have better attitude, skills and knowledge. And oh, I guess to be nicer also? I know it's a scary political world out there and sometimes I just get involved in it. Maybe it's time for me to step back, and be objective about things? I always need to remind myself, the Grace of God :)

4) To be a better nurse
Sometimes I feel that I would be so caught up in being task-oriented that sometimes I forget that I am supposed to care for my patient! Yeah, need to work on that. And I hate the part about giving good services to my patient/relatives. Hello, it's supposed to come naturally alright. I hate it when they expect so much "service" service from us :/

5) To step up if there are any chances of performing
Auditions, friend recommendations, I'm going to go for all! I really don't want this theater performing to stop! Even if I ain't the best actress, I wanna train and gain more experiences to be better! :)

That's all I can think of now :) Photos to share! :D

Juicez year end gathering! Love them all to bits! Enjoyed myself being involved in those events...

Presents from Uncle Terrence! Feel really touched yet bad. Hehehe.

Alright! I sound like an Ogre here. HAPPY NEW YEAR LAH! WHATEVER! TIME TO SLEEP!!!

Merry Christmas, with love

2011-12-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

Eventually, I didn't have to work on Christmas Eve and Christmas Day! Woohooo! Urgh, it's always so tempting to agree to cutting me off for that shift. Kinda persisted that I wanted to still work tomorrow but oh well, just take it as a rest day for me :) Which means, I have already finished using up my PH :(

Anyway, had a Christmas gathering with clique yesterday! It was a good meetup because all were present! :) Can't believe that we still keep in contact after 4 years from graduation.

Had to share this... Acelyn looks soooooo good!! :)

A really nice poloroid shot of all of us!!

And because I didn't have to work today, I finally had the chance to attend CHC's Christmas service!! Wow, really miss those people there. Especially those from choir! URGH! Regret not taking photos with a couple of them :( They were the group that I could not bear to part with at that time. It was a funny feeling generally though. Not exactly feeling "home" at the place I have grown for 7 years... Maybe I easily adapt to an environment. But I will always remember where I had come from and I owe it to everyone I had come across with! :)

Was within 2 metres of my idol and I think she saw me!! :( Too bad I didn't have the courage to just step up to her and wish her a Merry Christmas... I mean, it would be SO weird if she totally didn't know me at all(though I heard that she knows this girl "Maria" exists! hehe). Oh well, I'm sure there will be other opportunities to meet her up close one day :)

At least, I also got to spend some face time with my BFF :D

Urgh, it irritates me to think of my upcoming shifts! I just want the 8th of Jan to come! I'M BLOODY EXCITED!!!!!!!

Self-shots

2011-12-21T23:11:00.001+08:00

All thanks to Elson & KerYuan, I got some rather nice shots while performing! Really good that I can keep them so that I can show my children next time when they totally do not believe that I used to perform blah blah...

If you think the hair with bangs looks weird, it's because the wig is actually supposed to be shoulder length. But the director wanted me to have my usual hair length. So yeah, I just lub the wig over my hair during scene changes. I hope I did play the 2 different roles well. Been watching some video clips of my performance and I think there is so much room for improvement! :)

Had my ward party yesterday. We had a lot of good food to eat! :D With Lina dear!!

The most ultimate crazy game. Hehehehe.

I'm still trying to get used to work once again. Urgh, I need time to adapt!! Seesh! 1 year since I stepped into the ward! Time to buck up my performance! Shoot man! I'm actually quite disappointed with myself. Maybe I just have way too high expectations of myself in work. I just want to be firm enough to make decisions and have so much knowledge in everything.

I hope the working days will be better. Christmas is around the corner. Time to buy stuff!!! WOOHOO! I'M GONNA SPEND MONEY LIKE CRAZY! And oh, gonna work on Christmas eve and Christmas day. Planning to sing carols and random songs to my patients! Just wanna bring love and hope! Hehehe! So fun!! :D

NYP's 20th Anniversary Musical- Homecoming

2011-12-18T12:10:00.005+08:00

WOOHOO! Finally it's over! From July till now! I will miss all the intensive rehearsals though :( But I'm also quite happy to return to work! Hehehe :D

Hmmm, I hate my voice! Seriously! I always feel that I can't control it well! I must say what I delivered on the 2 days wasn't my personal best. It's either people are too nice to have compliments or I'm a perfectionist when it comes to singing. Anyway it's over! I don't need to care about it anymore! Hehe.

Some photos to share! :D

The girls during mic check!

The SoundCard peeps!!

Heheheh! Woohoo! I love Shing Min!! :)

Invited both my sisters as well! I'm glad they enjoyed! Hehe. I'm sure now when I need day offs to have performances, they will give it to me! :P

My parents who always support me!

The nursing classmates!! Whee! So happy when they appeared "behind"!

Juicez peeps!! :)

This bunch never fail to support my in every performance I am in! :) And now, ShaoYu is the performer!! Hehehe!

I love this awesome director, Uncle Terrence!!!

Little did I know that this secondary school classmate would be acting with me! (yeah, and thanks to Barry for laughing so loud when Shao Yu shouted at me in the show)

The beautiful dancers :)

Treasa dear!!! :D

Finally I indulged on McSpicy!! YUMMY!!!

The awesome singer!!!

I have definitely ended the year 2011 with a big bang!! What lies ahead in 2012? I have totally no idea. But I am gonna have aspirations, and achieve them! Life is really all about realising the power of the dream. Wow...

Standby Mode

2011-12-15T11:29:00.001+08:00

Rehearsals have been crazy. REALLY CRAZY. I have been going to NYP almost everyday for the past 2 weeks! Phew!! But..... I CAN'T BELIEVE THAT THE SHOW IS TOMORROW ALREADY!!!! Arghhh!! OMGOMGOMG! I feel really nervous. One of the biggest role I have ever played. Even though I'm not played the lead, I enter in 12 scenes out of the 13 scenes!!!! It's really draining!

Anyway I should stop complaining, because I really love what I love doing :) I'm so happy that I have friends supporting me too! (you know who you are) What I really hope for now is to have perfect articulation of lines, good pitching and singing(not straining kind), the right emotions and mood of the various scenes, being very into character and the comfort in engaging the audience during the 2 actual days!

I MUST BREAKTHROUGH AND DO EXTRAORDINARILY WELL! :) They told me that that know I will shine on the actual day. Thanks for the encouragement, but I really hope it will happen :) Grace of God, grace of God!!!

Anyway in between rehearsals, I had some fun because it is also my annual leave period!! Photos to share! :)

Went to Botanical Gardens with the youth peeps! It was really fun just hanging out!!

Random group in church! I love the Christmas decorations!

Some rehearsal photos! Waiting backstage while waiting for our turn!!

The big grand stage!!! Tomorrow I will no longer be seeing empty chairs already!! *stress*

Treasa and I during preview!!

After Saturday's performance, it will be back to reality. But I'm quite happy to return to work! Provided that it is not crazy. My sister never give me PH at all for Christmas and New Year :( Which means I will have 4 "extra" off days brought over next year!!! Good! Good!!

I'm just praying very hard for a good show :) Really.

My Days In NYP

2011-12-07T01:00:00.001+08:00

If you were to ask me to act out scene 11 of HomeComing Musical right now, I think I could do it perfectly... I really miss my studying days! Going to the library and cramping all the shitz into my brain and going off for rehearsals during the exam period!

Did almost exactly that today(yesterday). It has been about a year since I last stepped into the library! It was good sitting down and doing the stuff I ought to do.

Even a bunch of Nursing students sat beside my table. They were frantically revising for their skills test(one of the horrors in nursing). It seemed so complicated to them but to me, it's just a simple procedure I do in the ward. Wow, it made me realized that I've grown so much! :)

So, we have been and we are having pretty intensive rehearsals for the big show! For me, I got really tongue twisted. Seriously, why does it ALWAYS happen to me?! Hope it will be better with more practice!

I love spotlights! :) It somehow gives me the confidence! Looking forward to better acting!

I can do it!! I thank God for His grace :)

2011-12-02T14:19:00.001+08:00

I'm listening to the instrumental of Rainbow Connection played on the keyboard by one of my SoundCard junior. It really sounds good. Oh man, it's giving me the feeling! COME ON MARIA! You can do it! :) Really at this point of time, it is good to just reflect back and ponder why on Earth I am in this musical. Why??? Hmmm.

I got news that there would be this "Homecoming" musical on the day I watched 881 the musical. Hehe. I told myself back then that I MUST be involved in it because that is the only platform that I can do what I really like. Act, sing, dance. Let the audience feel my emotions. Make them laugh, tear, be in awe. Where I can do quick changing, put on pretty make up, have lights shining on me, seeing myself in programme booklets, posters. Be with the people I love :) 2 weeks to SHOWTIME. GOSHHHH!

As compared to the others I've been through, this musical seems different. In a slightly negative sense of course. Though I must say that the story is one of the best to me, not forgetting the stage settings and the beautiful songs in it. The spirit, feeling might be different. But you know what is gonna stay the same? Shining on stage! Yes! It will be one of the best I've done so far! I don't care!!!

I really can't wait for the moment when I'm on stage the actual day, starting off the whole musical! :)

I thank God for such a timely annual leave (planned by me of course). Been going out since day one! Went to the airport to see dear Sheryne off!! Will miss her for a whole month!!

I have yet to go on a proper shopping trip!!! It's okay! I have many days of leave left!! :)

20 more days

2011-11-26T23:13:00.001+08:00

This is no joke. 20 more days till the actual day of the musical! But you know what, I still can't get into character. Like seriously, I don't know why! I know they are not pin-pointing me. They want the best out of me but I have seem to have let them down every single practice. You know what, I have never received any positive feedback on my acting since day 1. So what if I had past experiences? If you act bad, means you act bad. I hate myself sometimes...

I'm getting quite sick and tired of all these. I have never been so stressed about performing before. I really need a breakthrough.

Today in church, everyone is supposed to write down their desires/wishes for Christmas this year. Well, I didn't participate in it but what I really wish deep down in my heart is to be a good actress. This is all that matters to me for now.

I'm really glad that my annual leave is round the corner. I can really have the time to be at home and work on my character and lines. I feel that sometimes being so tired from work hinders me from practicing on my own.

At the end of the musical, I just wanna look back and be so darn proud of myself that I have broken through(if theres such a word).

God, please help me. I want a breakthrough desperately.

Bad To Work Tomorrow!

2011-11-20T19:55:00.001+08:00

Woohoo! Had an awesome weekend! I finally had a whole weekend to enjoy after a long time! Yay! I just need to work for another full week and two days before my annual leave!! Finally! Taking a long good break since I started work! But it will be all dedicated to musical rehearsals. Heh. Nevertheless, I'm still gonna make room for shopping. I need to SPEND SPEND SPEND!!!

Last night I attended ShaoYu's 21st birthday celebration! The venue very much reminded me of the parties the girls from Gossip Girl would go. Hehehe. Just didn't have the time and energy to dress glam enough. Heh...

Mighty 4 of us! :D

The NYP Homecoming casts who attended!!!

My darling SiShi :D

The usual bunch of us!! After 4 years we still see each other!!

Woke up today with scenes of me acting in one of the scene of the musical. I think I got the inspiration! So simple! All I had to do was to visualize! I tried practicing at home already, I hope I can portray it really well during the rehearsal tomorrow!! OMG SO SCARY! Less than a month to showtime and we are not even halfway done! :O I need to rely more on God's strength. God, if You have placed me through this, it means You know that I can do it well!! Yes, I will have a breakthrough!!!

I CAN DO IT, YES I CAN!

:(

2011-11-18T22:20:00.001+08:00

One of the days I find out that I cannot work under pressure and with a heavy workload. Sigh. Really shows how incompetent I am :/ Really hope I can improve and work darn well! Buck up Maria, buck up!!!

Photoshoot tomorrow! Gonna be a tiring day! Well, a least JCI is over! To be honest, I kinda teared a little when everyone in the auditorium applauded each other for the hard work. Wow, I feel so belonged in this organisation. Or maybe I was just being extremely emotional. Heh....

Sleep is my best friend :)

JCI and Rehearsals!

2011-11-17T19:55:00.001+08:00

Wooooo! It's been a really crazy because I was/am required to work from Monday to Friday mornings this week! It's no joke when you have rehearsals on Monday and Wednesday evenings where I would usually reach home at 12plus and only sleep for a good 4 hours! At least for now I only have one more day to work before my FULL WEEKEND! WAHUHUHUHU!

A lil sneak peek of my character :P

So for the past few days, I've been struggling to memorize my lines. Not only that, trying so, so hard to get into character :/ Sometimes I think I'm a really lousy actress. Can't even pick up different roles. Still, I think I will be darn good in being the ensemble cast for Wicked. HAHAHA! Just that my dancing isn't that fanstastic...

But seriously from then, where will I go? :) Where will this path take me? I'm really excited and I hope I will be given more and more opportunities to perform. Ya, thinking of it already makes me feel so excited!!

Tomorrow will be the end of JCI(audit thingy). Finally, all the preparation we have gone through will be worth it! So far, I have attended 2 of the debriefs by the JCI committee and what I can see really is the great teamwork by all the staff from KK! It's really nice to see all the departments gathering together and cheering each other on! :) ONE MORE DAY! We can do it! :) And of course I hope we will get it because I really want to belong to a hospital with such good standards. Not forgetting the incentives ;)

So yeah!! I'm learning to treasure my sleep more! :)

Love

2011-11-13T00:44:00.001+08:00

It's really funny how I long to be in musicals with a role that requires me to fall in love. But too bad, I have yet to have a chance, unless you want to consider "Summer Nights" that I did with Fadzly. But to me it's not counted cos the song is abit cheesy. Hahaha.

Without "gambling" your heart away, acting in love is the best way to feel love. Really. Okay I know I'm a loser, haha. Cos I have never experienced such love before. What's more, I can sing it in a song, have a really romantic backdrop, be really pretty and hold those hands. You know, how we imagine love is VERY different from reality.

During rehearsal today, I was totally mesmerized when they did "Endless Love". But if I was given a chance, I think I would act and respond way better than her. HAHAHA! Not saying that she is lousy or what but I can totally feel it man. It's like inside I've been dying to fall in love.

I don't think it's wrong to fall in love. Everyone deserves it. Will it happen to me? God knows. And I leave it all to Him.

At the meantime, I can still dream to play a role that can fall in love in a musical one day...

"Two hearts that beat as one, our lives has just begun..."

Happy Weekend!

2011-11-07T16:17:00.001+08:00

More like a happy Saturday! Heh.. So Sidney came over to LifeUnited! Well, I might have overreacted the moment he stepped into the room. Okay, it's not because I have a girly crush(like other typical girls~) on him on whatever. But I just could not believe my eyes! Someone like me, would have the chance to share the stage with someone so big making music for God! It really shows how God can still use this small church to do His works!

Love the music team :)))

Some other people awesome people to share :)

Roy and Elson! I'm really looking forward to the greater LifeUnited adventures with them!!!!

And dear KerYuan, who has changed so much!! Happy to see her really connected to God and serving so actively in the house of God!!!

I can't wait for our 1 year Anniversary. There's definitely so much to look back to. Ultimately, God is amazing. With so little we have, we are still able to run a church! I'm REALLY excited of what's ahead! WOOHOOO!!

November

2011-11-01T11:52:00.002+08:00

Oh my goodness!! 2 more months before the year ends! Time flies man, time flies... There's so much to reflect about. Basically I would wanna share 3 aspects of my life that occurred this year!

1) Moving to LifeUnited.

So, last Saturday was already the 38th service (yes, we treasure every single service) since 12 February. I remember in January that I was seriously in a dilemma if I should go or not. And I (anyhow) made that decision to be part of this new church! I can proudly say that it was a decision that I did not regret! It was painful letting go of so many things back there. But sometimes you just gotta let go in order to grab something even better. The main takeaway that I have learnt during the services is that I am graced to be where I am right now. I need not do any extravagant to earn His love for me because God has already loved me and all I need is to be thankful.

2) My career in KKH.

I am very happy to be where I am right now! Even though working as a new staff had many ups and downs, I am still here, alive! I am very thankful for the favour upon me. Well, I hope the favour is because of my attitude and how well I am able to work. I am not perfect though. I still make mistakes. I still struggle with the carelessness in me. But that's okay. Everyday when I step into the ward, I learn something new about work and myself.

3) Having 5 major performances in 2011.

Everyone knows that I would give up anything just to perform :) 'Our Tampines Story', 'Great World Family Fun', National day shows for Woodlands and Tampines have all given me so much experience and exposure on acting/singing. And I owe it all to Uncle Terrence! It's like why on Earth he would choose me. My acting is seriously bad. I have no background in acting. But he just never gives up on me. Even for 'Homecoming' in December, he just believes that I can play such a complicated role(well, to me it's really complicated). And I never wanna let him down. Over the past few days, I've been practicing really hard on the bitchy role. I hope I can show it good for tomorrow's rehearsal!!

Will there be more next year? I don't know. But I am already awed by all the opportunities given to me this year :)

Yeah, so that's my 2011 for you. The thing I'm looking forward to before 2012 is my year-end bonus. WAHAHAHAHAHHA! Jeez! I am sooooo money minded!

Parents Appreciation & other random thingys

2011-10-25T09:10:00.001+08:00

On Sunday, the youths in LifeUnited held an event to simply appreciate our parents. So, my Dad came along!

One word I can describe that day: "Divine". It was really divine and God-planned.

Watching the video of my best friend really makes me miss her a lot :( Anticipating her return on 14 Dec!!

Urgh, going for vocal training, then coming home to catch some sleep before doing my night shift. And then, going to send Mom off to Germany! Sigh, she has such a good life!

Ok, which me luck! Hope she won't scold me for not being able to hit the notes! :/

Death

2011-10-20T22:01:00.003+08:00

I got to know a bit more about death through real experiences the past few days. I guess when it comes to faith, what you believe is what you will get. I can have people telling me that some black white spirit is bringing them "downstairs" and others saying that they see the light and Jesus. Either way, it just feels so "magical" but so true!!

First of all with all due respect, may my patients rest in peace. I'm glad that they are no longer suffering in pain. I just want to share my insights on death.

On the day before her death, I could tell that she wasn't ready for it. She just tried to be as awake as ever, asking me to slap her legs, shake her and talk to her. It is just so hard to bring it across to someone who is dying. She was very much in distress, and I told her to just be calm, close her eyes and sleep. She took it that I wanted her to go. Well, which was true but never in a bad way.

That kept me thinking... On my death bed, will I be willing to let everything go? The moment I stop breathing, where will my soul be? What will I see? According to my faith, I will go to heaven(and I thank God that I'm graced to go there). Yes, but from then on, what will happen? And since I won't have a physical brain, will I be able to think things, remember all the incidences that happened in life?

I guess I will never know unless I experience it myself. Unfortunately when it happens, I would not be able to blog it out here. Ha!!

Long Time No Update!

2011-10-14T22:05:00.001+08:00

So I haven been updating due to the hectic schedule I'm having, but I'm glad that the week is going to be over! Phew!! Okay, so last Friday, I went to KKH's D&D @ Fairmount Hotel!! I was really a big ballroom and I had so much fun. The food was zzzzz though. The theme was "When I grow up, I wanna be....." And I tried to dress up like a rock star! Which I thought it kinda failed.

With the sweet Lina! :) She's one lucky girl cos she won 4th prize in the grand lucky draw! :)

Love the colour contrast in the photo! :)

Ward 43 babes~

And a photo with Cheryl!!

I kinda participated actively in the games, but got humiliated by the stupid emcee :( I thought I could win some prize so I sang through the mic. But in the end he was like, "Too bad I'm deaf" Ahhhh, crap. So I didn't win anything!

On Saturday, I attended Barry's 21st Birthday party!! I was one of the more happening ones I've attended! Heheh.

I love this photo with darling SiShi!

Clique!!

The whole bunch of usssss!

The party ended at 3am and I purposely stayed up and tried to sleep at 7am so that I will sleep the whole on Sunday for my night shift because I was going to USS the next day!!! WAHHOOOO!

Okay, I know it's abit stupid to go to USS on my post-night but I really had no choice and still, I managed to enjoy the rides! Just that I was quite tired and grumpy!

We actually queued up to take a photo with Charlie Chaplin!! Hehe, I look horrible in this photo. This was taken just for my Dad!!! :)

Yup, and I've been having rehearsals and vocal trainings for the NYP musical!! Woohoo! I'm really excited man! THE DATE is drawing nearer! Really man, doing shows is my kind of life. I may not be good yet but I will learn from the experiences I'm having!! Lalala dum dee dum! I hope I can invite every single person I know to watch me! :D It's just my way of impressing people! At least, it's a time where I can feel good about myself!!

Which means, I can't wait for the rehearsal tomorrow! WOOHOOO!!!

How I celebrated Life

2011-10-06T09:43:00.001+08:00

Yay Happy Birthday to me blah blah blah. This year, I made it really simple and low profile(sorry, I tried my very best) And I WON Malcolm's challenge. A handful of people wished me on facebook despite not putting the date on my profile!! Okay, please ignore me. Malcolm and I always come up with funny things to compare against each other.

Spent time with clique!! :) Had awesome lunch at Watami!!

My beloved SiShi & I :)

The walk down Orchard road!!

Pretending to be tourists!! Hehe.

Totally can't wait to go to USS with them!! :D 4 more days!! Really excited!!

Then went out with Theresa & Marcus to have our yearly celebration. 10 years later, I'm gonna do a compilation of photos that we celebrated over the pass few years. Yeah, how nice :)

Also visited MBS Robinsons to take a look at Wicked's costumes!! Pretty!!!

Theresa is soooo pretty!

Simple celebrations, simple, but they touched my heart.

I was really emotional last night. After a usual day of work, I went for rehearsals and they had to call it off. I was looking forward to it the whole week! Yeah, kinda! Whose fault is it? I don't know. I really didn't know who to be upset to be with... Myself? Them? The rest of the cast? If this continues, I will get so sick and tired of just being around to be blamed, scolded for the things that I am very committed to & have passion for. I cannot take it. I really can't. Why I am only telling myself that the sacrifices will be worth it? I just hope that whatever happened would not affect our friendship. Well, maybe I wasn't significant to you at all. I don't know how to go on from here...

And that's how my life is like now being 21...

To Be Thankful

2011-09-27T23:32:00.001+08:00

A few days back, I went out with my colleague to shop after work. It was a time for me to know her better. I don't know why but I started to ask her random questions about her life.

She has 5 siblings and the whole family lives in a 2 bedroom flat. Apparently, she does not have a proper bed to sleep on. She sleeps on a really thin mattress on the floor. And she doesn't even have her own room! I looked at my own life and felt so ashamed of myself. I may have almost everything in my room but yet I still complain and compare with my cousins who has more material things than me. I don't even wanna start with how her living room, toilet is like.

On my 21st birthday, I just want to learn to be contented with the things I have. I need to open up my mind.

Ward Party Again~

2011-09-25T22:56:00.001+08:00

Wooohoo! Just came back from my ward party and had fun! Okay, I really have no idea why we are doing it so often. Just had one in June and we're going to have a year end one too! Zzzzz. But yeah woohoo! Partayyyy! Just no more chalet & BBQ please! Haha! Anyway photos!!!

Celebrated sister's birthday, which is today!! Happy that she liked the lil surprise :)

In ward 43, you will feel loved :)

Lina dear :)))

And then they all got obsessed with the camera!

I love this shot a lot! By ME!!

The chics!! :)

Super hot Luanne and I failed my smise! Haha.

We totally forgot to take an official big group photo! *knocks head* Just managed to take this when most of the people left already :(

Nevertheless, Happy Birthday sister Ding :) You're really such an inspiration to me and I'm thankful for all the opportunities given to me :)

Yeah, I'm really thankful to God for placing me in 43. Really believe that I ended up here for a purpose. I think every time when I feel so down about work, I just need to remind myself that there's a reason and it would manifest itself soon..

Back to work tomorrow! 5 days of work before I have 4 days of rest in the midst of my birthday! :D

Meanwhile I just hope rehearsal on Wednesday will be good. I feel a little bit more motivated after watching real musical backstage videos on YouTube. The quick changes, put of make up, warm ups and more :)

Post Night

2011-09-22T00:24:00.001+08:00

I think I messed up my biological clock. Hahaha! But yeah! Night shift completed! *pats myself on the back* It's really not easy esp when almost all the patients visit the toilet. Hello. I don't even visit the toilet halfway through my sleep!

Just returned from another musical training. Urgh. I really hate this feeling. I need motivation. I know we're being trained up and all but I think what we are going through is really too dry. I'm starting to lose my excitement! At the initial part, I used to be so excited about every practice, but things are so different now... I just need to tahan. Because at the end of the day, I know all these dedication & commitment will be worth it :)

Showed the juniors some of the productions I was involved in, and they were so impressed. Hope that lil sharing will inspire them to perform and step out more! They're just year 1, still a long way to go! :) If only someone, anyone could inspire me...

At least for now, what I'm looking forward to is my birthday week (requested for 4 straight off days!) & the ultimate trip to USS. Hehehe :)

On top of all these, I just wanna thank God for the favor upon me in my different aspects of life.

Meanwhile, I'm still trying to be the best person I can...

First Night Tonight!

2011-09-20T13:19:00.000+08:00

As a staff nurse... I don't know why, but I'm feeling so nervous! I just hope that everything will go smoothly :) From now on, I'll be having night shifts at least once set in 3 weeks! So yeah, welcome to the REAL world. The problem now is that I had to adjust to my sleeping time. I'm really bad and that's why I have jetlag always.

Anyway I had a good conversation with sister. Well, she's currently taking her part-time masters in nursing. She told me if I stayed long enough in nursing, they would send us to just go and further out studies. Then, she asked me... "Do you want to take masters?" I totally could not give her an answer. Sad ain't it. I hate crossroads. I just don't know where to go.

Purpose... What's my purpose?

SiShi's 21st! :D

2011-09-17T22:56:00.001+08:00

So we celebrated SiShi's 21st birthday at some Korean Restaurant which turned out to be my only proper meal of the day. Nevertheless, I LOVE SISHI A LOT! :D Oh, we had a good time catching up too. The company where I can always be myself :)

The wide spread of food!! Yumyum! Spicy BBQ chicken FTW! (i have that most of the time for dinner at work)

With the darling birthday girl!!

Chilled out at Baskin Robbins!

From a random suggestion, it became a plan! We're going to USS in October! I'm like so, so excited! Finally I can go to such a place with my group of good friends :D I just hope the application of my "day off" on that day will be successful. I guess the roller coasters would not be as scary as the one I sat earlier this year *recalls the vertical incline this being upside-down SLOW*. Anyhow, I will scream my lungs out with my friends :D

Time to sleep and be awake for tomorrow's morning shift. I shall leave the packing of bag and ironing of the uniform to tomorrow. Yeah baby~ Instead of doing those things, I gave this blog a new skin. There you go, Lazy Maria

Why do I feel so L at the place I shouldn't be feeling at all?

Comfort Food

2011-09-15T22:29:00.001+08:00

Been thinking of my late patients. How they really suffered and craved for certain types of food even though they had really poor appetite.

1) Warm tau huay
2) Vanilla ice cream
3) Apple juice
4) Milo
5) Medication (okay kidding. actually there is!!!! Morphine)

From 30th Sep onwards, I will be working as a confirmed staff. OMG! The journey just started, again. All I wanna do is perform well and make my patients happy :) I kinda like it when they remember my name actually.

Turning 21 in about 2 weeks! Nothing significant, but I just want to spend time with my loved ones :)

Regarding rehearsals, I hope they will give out the script soon! Feeling quite worried cos it's drawing closer! Also, sometimes you just tend to lose the excitement when week in week out you're just doing exercises.

Yeah, that's my life basically. Morning shift tomorrow!

Wedding!

2011-09-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

Attended Hui Chen's wedding! I love weddings because it's always the time where I can dress up. Okay, I wasn't really dressed up as it was in Bottle Tree Park but still, I like~ Hehehe.

My lovely classmate! :D

With the bride!!

Gosh. I can't believe I'm at this stage of my life where people around me are getting married. It feels like I've GROWN UP! Hehehe.

Talking about being grown up, today is Mooncake Festival and gone are the days where I would go downstairs and randomly play with fire! Hehee. I guess the computer/internet has very much changed everyone's life. Now everyone can just stay at home and stare at the screen the whole day.

Can't wait for rehearsal on Wednesday! Heehee! Gonna have Macdonalds too! Lala dumdeedum.

Mobile Blogging!

2011-09-09T08:59:00.001+08:00

Testing testing 123 ;)

All I can say is that I'm looking forward to the next weekend & Wednesday! Hehehe.

Things I Wanna Do

2011-09-05T22:11:00.000+08:00

First, showing snippets of my life in LifeUnited :) Presenting the 2 Mummies!!! :D Little did I know that this photo with Zoe was the day before Anya's birth! :O

Mummy Shi Yi!! Asher is still floating inside! :)

Both very open to share their joy! :))) Feel so happy for them! It's like the child is gonna be YOURS. Something of your own. So beautiful ain't it?

Hehe, Sheryne and I with our awesome head/hair bands!

And we photo-spammed on bus 52! My favourite bus at the moment!

Yup! Loving the people around me! But life would be better with Jing around! A shout out to you dear! Miss you so, so much!! :D

So, the things I wanna do the next few weeks/months:
1) Make a music video for my song
2) Have plans for my super duper awesome US trip!
3) Find the character in me that I'm going to play in Dec!
4) Make plans for my 21st
5) Write more songs!!!!!!!! [inspiration i need you badly]

Okay I need to go shopping too! ^^

A Mid-week Affair

2011-09-02T14:17:00.000+08:00

Caught Cars 2 with my darling SiShi and I love the movie so much!!! Hehehe. There was a little(actually a lot) James Bond element added into the movie.

The cars are sooooo cute when they are being personified!

And the company was awesome because other than a couple who sat at the very far back corner of the cinema, we had the whole place to ourselves! Thankfully we were not watching any horror movie if not we'll be hugging each other non-stop! Hahaha! But poor Eng Wah, having really bad business.

It was a good date :) Looking forward to more!

The things that make music in my crib

2011-08-30T17:43:00.000+08:00

A few months ago, someone asked me how many musical instruments I have in my room. I think he was trying to show off but it seems like I owned him. I'm not bossing here though. I admit and I have no talent in playing them! I aspire to be like professional pro! :( Still, I am proud of my property! :)

From the oldest... My Guitar!! He has been with my for 5 years!

The Ukulele! Which I am still very pathetic in playing. I only can play a few chords. But I wanna pluck and play instrumentals!

My djembe. Which I haven have the opportunity to play. I only can play like 3 types of rhythms. Booo!

The bass guitar! Which I basically collected and played for less than 10 times. Hahah! And I don't even have a bass amp to go with it, so the sound isn't shiok at all.

Lastly a keyboard, borrowed from a friend! I aspire to play and sing well and post up good covers, but that will never happen. HAHAHA!

So many instruments, no talent :( I think it will be a waste of money if I ever have a recording studio at home. Oh well, totally can't focus on anything! My fingers just give up when it is too hard to play! I need more off days so that I can play them! (like today!)

The day is ending! But it was good :) Looking forward to more off days!! Whee!

Life Still Goes On

2011-08-28T22:35:00.000+08:00

I will remember this quote my choir conductor Miss Yee would always say...

Somehow, I received feedback from my colleague about my work. And of course it wasn't too good. You know the moment you hear such sucky and ugly things(and sometimes if you wonder if you did anything wrong actually), your morale just sinks down and you can sit there and be in deep thoughts for hours. I had 2 choices on I could react to it:

#1 Get very angry and deny everything. Blame the person for not knowing why I did certain things/the reason why I behave like that. Find out exactly who was the one who said it about me and just do my best and clear my name. Give as many excuses.

#2 Listen and accept what she had said about me. Think what were the exact actions I did and in the future, how I can do it differently. Basically, just change myself.

It would be so so natural to go for #1. But yeah, everyone knows what is the right way. Honestly speaking, I have no idea why I was described in such a way. Because I really did my best in everything. Unless the thing is out of my knowledge or skills. A very huge "ego drop" for me. There are people who actually think negatively about me :( Nevermind, life still goes on.

Anyway I am 5 months into my work now. I still need time and a lil of getting used to. I know that I can do it.

As for now, I need to look at my past victories to boost myself up!

Oh wait, do I even have any past victories? :/

Happy Week :)

2011-08-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

Even though work is driving me crazy once again. One of those moments I feel so inadequate and lousy :( Yes it's true, but I'll pick up. I will pick up. Anyway I'm still glad that I have the time to socialize! I need a life! And work is so not gonna stop me!

Went over to visit lil Ian too! He turns 9 days old today! Waahahahha. Honestly, I have never carried a baby over such a long time before! And the past few babies I have been seeing were dead (no elaboration required)

As of now, I can't wait for him to grow up! Wonder how he will be and look like!

:D

"I need You more"

A good Saturday in a long time!

2011-08-21T21:20:00.001+08:00

Finally, I got to spend my Saturday with the people I love. All thanks to Roy for allowing me to rest this Sat. Heehehe. So, Danson, Nat and I had a lunch affair at Hog's Breath Cafe! Initially we wanted to go to Food for Thought near the Arts Museum but it was full house! There's always a next time!~

Awesome steak! I should have ordered that! The lamb shank I ordered was alright alright only.

We had super late lunch so the place was empty!

Finally, posing with the $650 shades!

For dinner, I went to Furama Hotel to celebrate Carlos' 21st Birthday!! The buffet was good and the party was so big! Almost the whole area was his!!! And look at his awesome cake!

The gals who were there~

My beloved SiShi!!!! <3 Looks like some clubbing scene.

Only a couple of them started going to NS already! WOW! All growing up to become men! Hahah. And then they started telling us girls all the funny and bizzare things in camp! Could not stop laughing the whole night!

Love the desserts!!

Yeah man, I need to catch up with my friends! Miss them all so much!

To end this post, I had work today. And I will be working tomorrow! Welcome to life!

Happy 21st, Lee Jing Wei!

2011-08-16T20:19:00.001+08:00

Here's a little poem to by BFF

Happy Birthday, you're 21
Presents for you, I have none (i owe you when you come back!)
But this lil poem and a simple letter (check your letter box soon!)
Expressed with words, it can't be better!

You have been my best friend
Something I wish that would never end
Even if you are far away
Your emails with encouragements make my day!

For the past 3 years that you stayed in Oz,
I have seen that you have grown a lot
From doing housework to being a president in StudentLife,
I am sure you will make a good wife (sorry had to find sth to rhyme!)

So, enjoy your day with your friends over there
As for me, I'll keep you in my prayer
Please know that I'm always here for you
Always thinking of you. Yes! That's true!

2 photos to remember the times spent with you :)

Teaching you how to play Monopoly Deal! It was boring because only both of us played and KerYuan was studying for her papers.

The last time I saw you :( Seeing you off on 12 Feb (i remember because lifeutd started that day).

Come back soon dear!! Now that I'm working, there isn't any exam or school I need to worry about. I can simply just chill with you during my off days!! :DDD

Happy Birthday Biatch!!

What's your dark secret?

2011-08-09T23:43:00.000+08:00

I've came to realise that everyone(including me) has a dark secret. Was just flipping though books and papers from my past, and I was reminded of it :/

Is it gonna happen? I don't know. Sometimes I hope everyone will stop asking me the same question. I don't want to be reminded.

Happy Birthday Singapore. Thank you(sincerely), for making me a spoilt brat!

Phew! I SURVIVED!

2011-08-07T10:01:00.000+08:00

Another show done! Like finally! No more intensive rehearsals! Finally I can withdraw and slack a little! Yeah, I am really happy cos I gained so much experience this season. All thanks to Uncle Terrence for the opportunities given to me! Above that, God for planning this path for me!

It's true! After stepping out of NYP, I seriously wondered if I would have anymore chance in performing. And this chance came by! Next one coming would be NYP's 20th Anniversary musical! Well, I am not sure about next year, but I am just going to go with the flow! One day, I yearn to see my portrait picture & a description of me in a program booklet of an external musical! Wow!! That would be currently my ultimate dream! But I know I'm not that good yet! Need to train myself up and learn through the lil shows I have!

And today the ward called me to take off day! YAY! Like phew! Finally I can rest at home on a Sunday! Seriously I have been working on Sundays the past 9 weeks! Oh well, a nurse's life! But I like doing shift work cos I can arrange it in such a way that I can make myself attend rehearsals and all! Wahhahaa! My senior staff was telling me, "Huh! Again having rehearsals ah??" Yes! That's my kind of life!

Because of the off day today, I am able to attend a family gathering at my cousin's house! WOOHOO! It's been quite some time since I last saw them. Yay, I can just chillax with my cousins! :)

WOOHOO!

2011-08-02T10:37:00.000+08:00

Okay, I'm still excited about EVERYTHING! Hehe. On Saturday, did a National Day show for Woodlands. My sister was asking me if I'm really busy with so many events outside, and I told her that I am contributing to the community. I really know how to talk crap huh.. Wahahaha. Anyway photos!!

The awesome team!! :)

The amazing twins, Cordelia & Camellia!

Not forgetting Bernice again in her slutty Indian costume!! Jeez, I really look like a BIG Nonya beside her :/

Though we were rushing like mad, I enjoyed this performance a lot! :) More heartland kinda feeling. Glad it's over!! No need to worry about anything! OH NO I FORGOT! Doing another one for Tampines this Saturday! Wahahaha!

I thank God because I managed to wake up 5am the next day for work when I only reached home at 12plus and slept at 1.30am!!

Watched Lion King with Carlos on Sunday after work.

I must say that the special effect, sets & the props were really cool. But abit disappointed in the singing part. Like nothing to enjoy in the singing. Heh. The cast had 2 kids. I love them so much!! Really hope my children(if i have) can become like them! I will groom and force them! Muahahahaa!

And tonight I'm gonna watch "Into The Woods" with my "Mommy" & "Ah Pa"!! :D Can't wait!! I am also looking to next week, when I will have off on National Day itself! Time to have a good meal with my parents then!!!

Great World Family Fun

2011-07-30T11:45:00.000+08:00

Finally!! 1 down! 2 more to go :( Getting quite drained already. But after the national day performances, the NYP musical rehearsals will start regularly already! Jeez! Nevermind! THIS IS THE TIME to experience all these! I have a feeling in the years to come, I won't have any more opportunities already. Well, it's not a bad thing, but it's more like shifting my focus.

Anyway yesterday was boomz! Hehehe. Gave $18 & my fringe and traded them for bangs!!

With the pretty Bernice! :D

My Ah Girl character which I had problem to act :(

Our Nanny Treasa!!!!!

We love Uncle Terrence!! :)

The singer who did the cabaret song. She's REALLY good!

The whole team!

Well, it was a good experience! I'm gonna get better and better!!!!! Alrighty! Time to get ready for the next show!!!

The Weekend I've been Looking For!!!!!

2011-07-29T01:43:00.000+08:00

Wow oh whee!!! Just came back from rehearsal! Jeez! I'm pretty excited for this one! Though there isn't gonna be many people, but it's gonna be so professional and public. So stressed but excited at the same time! Some photos of the lovely people I've been working with!!

Presenting the whole cast with Uncle Terrence!

Adeline, Bernice and me!!! <3

Showing off our Long Champ bags. Hahaha. Malcolm, shut up!!

Well, if you just happen to PASS BY or BE IN Velocity, do drop by! It's at the outdoor tent near the road. I have no idea what time it starts though. So happy to perform always!

And Saturday, we'll be doing National Day for Woodlands!!! :D YAY YAY!

Before all the craziness, I quickly went to walk along the train tracks before it closes! Never knew that Singapore would have such beautiful sights! And it's like I pass by the train tracks everyday when I go to work but never exactly knew it existed.

Self-shot trying to balance on the tracks!

And I'm glad for the past 3 days in work, everything has been smooth! Wow! Thank God! I also hope I have improve in one way or another! Really wanna shine and be a good employee! :DD

Alright, I will need all the rest I can get!!! Goodnight!

My 5-day work week!

2011-07-24T10:24:00.000+08:00

It starts today! I am SO looking forward to the last day. Hahahaha. And I pray that things in the ward will go well when I am working! Been having dreams about making silly mistakes, blah blah. Urgh.

Anyway, I went back to NYP yesterday!!! Sc was having their camp!! Taken with the superstar! WOOHOO! Please ignore the irritating junior behind :)

Took a look at them trying out the high obstacle courses... Fadzly's so funny!

We tried to throw tennis balls at him, and I managed to hit him the first few times, but I missed the next few times because I could not stop laughing! Hehehe.

Being sticky and hot, I went for service!! Also had a good catch up with Sheryne!! I miss this babe!

Okay, off I go to make breakfast!! Urgh urgh! I want my AL soon!!!!

It's one after the other!!

2011-07-21T23:07:00.000+08:00

Had the preview of "Great World Family Fun" for the client yesterday! I'm glad it somehow went smoothly, but not perfect(on my part). Arghhh! Was pretty nervous and felt inferior. I wonder how I will do on the actual day but I'll just whack lah! Hahahaha!! Yeah, that is what I do most of the time! Hehehehehe.

After this show, I have 2 National Day events in Woodlands & Tampines!! Crazy huh. But I know it's gonna be really fun! Wheeeee! Can't wait to dress up and all! And I prefer this to Great World because it's more heartland-ish, more aunties and uncles will be around. Hahaha. Also, just soaking into the National Day spirit!

Lastly, I'm super excited about the first practice of NYP's anniversary musical this Saturday! Woohoo! Hope I can do really well with the role given to me. I will do my best! It's really all I ever wanted, period.

Okay I'm exposing too much of my personal life/desires here. Hah!

I love my life and I can't ask for more, I think.....

Hmmm

2011-07-17T22:08:00.000+08:00

Did a "last office" today. That's 3 people this week. What a week! Phew! But, I'm quite sad over a particular one. When she arrives(in the ward), I would specially go up to her and start talking and waving at her. And then she will have this really slow reaction but excited kind of face. Looks like I won't be seeing anymore of her :(

I just found out today that my colleague was actually a nurse who looked after my grandma for at least 2 years in St Luke's Hospital!!! I just mentioned my grandma's name and describe how she looked like and there, she remembered and starting blabbering all the things related to her! It's really heart-warming to hear such things from nurses who once looked after your family.

And there I was, ashamed of myself. As an adolescent, I rarely visited her even though I would actually PASS BY the hospital whenever I go to school! All I cared about was me, myself and I. If you ask me what would be one of the thing I regret in life, it would be not showing love to my grandma. Well, I can't say much for the others because they passed away when I was way younger. But to her, sigh. If only I could turn back in time.

So that's my pledge; To look after all the geriatric patients really well like how I would want to treat my grandma.

I know she's smiling right back at me :)

How I spend my rest day

2011-07-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

Made purchases! My heart hurts a bit from spending a lil too much but I'm happy!! :D Firstly, got my Lion King ticket!!

Yeah I know I was telling the whole world that I didn't wanna watch but oh well. JUST WATCH LAH. Anyway it has been a few months since I last watched a world-class musical. Hehehe. Hope it will be worth my money! :D

Decided not to watch "The Music of Andrew Lloyd Webber", because I though it would be rather boring :/ Yes, I appreciate his songs but I'm quite disappointed that the cast isn't from London. I looked at the website and got a peek, and the stage isn't very fantastic. So give it a miss lor. Anyway the cheapest ticket is $95. Besides, I'm too busy with work and rehearsals. Hahahaha!

While like randomly researching on Lord Andrew, I saw that he has a new musical, "The Wizard of Oz"!!!! Started to youtube and all, and found all the songs! Hehehe. Similar to his "The Sound of Music", the lead role is actually a winner of a competition broadcasted on BBC! Danielle Hope, 19 the winner and is playing the role of Dorothy. Argh! So envious! Looking at such people makes me wonder what on Earth I am doing now. Hahaha.

That aside, I became really addicted to the songs and 2 days later(today), I bought the CD!!! Wahahahaha!!!

After all the shopping, I had another rehearsal! Quite excited and a lil stressed at the same time! Hope I can do well!!!! :D

Goodnight!

Finally

2011-07-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

Another blog post titled "Finally". Because finally I am chilling in my room on a Sunday evening!! Also had a good dinner with my parents downstairs!! I've not been doing that the past month :/ This is bad! Very bad. Actually, since I started my shift work, I have been working every Sunday, except once, on the day of the ward party. I wanna claim my AL sooooooon!! And oh, I waiting for the 3 PHs in August! Wahahahaha!

Some photos to share :D The people I have rehearsals with! Though it's gonna be crazy and hectic, we're gonna make it successful!! Having abit of stress when trying to get into character though :/

For those who are free, come to Velocity(Novena MRT station) and catch "Great World Family Fun" on the 29th July 2011 at 8pm!!! There are going to be stalls to just resemble how "da shi jie" used to look like!

I love my LifeUtd peeps :D

Nuff said for this wonderful weekend!!!

I Love My Room

2011-07-06T12:50:00.000+08:00

Except for the dust...

Such Beautiful Lyrics

2011-07-04T09:26:00.000+08:00

Denn dir gehört mein Herz...

I'm gonna sing this as a lullaby to my child in the future :)

???

2011-07-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

I always believe that things happen for a reason but through different experiences, I kind of lost some hope. I guess I have been decieving myself all these while. Urgh, can't get rid of the "Lily" in me.

God, please hear this cry from my heart. Thank you so much.

I Have Awesome Friends! :)

2011-06-27T21:48:00.000+08:00

Pictures taken by my new toy!! Woohoo!

Another week is here... Looking forward to tomorrow's consumption sale(where i will kiv get a new phone), Wednesday's music prac, Thursday's meet up with Syuhada, Friday's rehearsal & Saturday's service!!! Okay but ultimately, I can't for 23 July. Hehehehe. Urgh! It's such a long wait!

Credits to whoever took & designed & posted this poster on facebook.

Okay, I am also quite excited for a dear SC buddy Shikin who is going through the FINALS of Anugerah tomorrow. Like wow! How on Earth did she make it so far? Haha. I feel proud because I performed with her before and because she's a fellow sc buddy!! :) I wish her all the best! Really awed at how her dreams are gonna come true!

Well, mine dream already did! Muahahahahhaa! :D

Everyone knows I really want it

2011-06-23T09:45:00.000+08:00

With God's grace, I GOT IN!!! I have the chance to be part of my school's 20th anniversary's performance! (I'm not mentioning my school in case someone googles & my blog link appears) It's gonna use up all my annual leave but I don't care! Besides, my sister will definitely encourage me to do this cos she knows that that is my passion! Gonna purposely invite her as well. Hehehe.

Can't get my hopes really high though, because there are only 3 main female roles and 4 of us are shortlisted. Which means one of us will be eliminated and would have to join the ensemble cast :(

Okay, it's not that I despise the ensemble but for the past productions I performed in, I played side roles or was in the ensemble. I mean, if I have the chance to shine, why not? I'm aiming to play one character, which I like a lot. Really hope that I can get that specific role! If I had to be kicked to join the ensemble, I could look at the bright side that I will be learning to dance! :D

Oh yeah, just remembered that I'm gonna have trainings with my favourite vocal instructor! Yay!! Can't wait for the first rehearsal already, which will be the end of next month. Hur hur hur.

Oh yes!!! Having rehearsal for another show tomorrow! Now, that's what I'm talking about!!!

Crazy Weekend (I really mean CRAZY)

2011-06-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

Worked for 5 days straight last week. Phew! I am so glad that I'm done with it :) The weekend was crazy because I slept on unearthly hours! Worked on Saturday morning and then went for service!! Super tired as I has to carry all my things around! But nevermind, enjoyed service :)

The 2 darlings in my LifeGroup!

After that, I headed over to West Coast Park to attend Murray's 21st BBQ birthday party! It was actually a good catch up time with my friends :) As we grow older, we talk about different things like our goals, focuses and work related stuff. Jeez, we're all becoming adults! :S Scary! No photos of the party though :/

Slept at 5am & woke up at about 11am to prepare to go for the ward party! Had a lot of fun! Like finally I get to see my colleagues and not talk to them about work stuff. Got to see the smiley and fun side of all of them!!! :)

Lina! I still remember on the very first day in ward 43, she was really guiding me in the junior work!

My dearest shifu! :D

The whole bunch who came! Though we have a lot of staff in the ward, we are still very busy :/

Ate like a hundred satays and a thousand chicken wings. Ok, that's not true. But the food was quite good! Yummy!! The company was even better!! After the ward party, I left for the airport to receive a dear friend Sheryne. She came back from Seattle after 6 long months! So envious! Hahaha.

Chilled at Starbucks... Really epic that they actually have the same wallet!!! :)

Us girls! Woohoo! Girls rule!! And look at the time...

Slept at 5am as well... Which explains why I only woke up at 4.30pm today. I feel wasted! Ok, done my fair bit of stuff to do but I have not packed my room yet!!! Oh well. Even though it's already 8plus in the night, it feel like it's the afternoon in my body clock. Help! And I have work tomorrow morning. Hahaha.

At least I won't have to experience this in a long time. Oh and I'm happy with the fact that I no need to study! Muahahahhaa!

Material Needs

2011-06-14T20:28:00.000+08:00

We were driving past Orchard Ion and I just told everyone in the car that that is definitely my dream home. Of course, it is just a dream and they called me materialistic :( Oh well, I'm afraid I am. That's why I composed "If Only". I have yet to find someone who can supersede my material needs :)

I brought Dad to IMM's Best Denki, having hopes that he might think that this is a good product and allow me to get it.

To my dismay, he said that it wasn't worth it, costing $429 for a machine like that. Well, I love it because it has awesome iPod synchronization with the use of the remote, AUX input, radio function and an alarm! Not forgetting the super nice purple design. Argh, my dreams of owning this is crushed. Nevermind, it can still remain as a dream! Who knows? 5 years later there will be even better products than this!! (just trying to cheer myself up)

You can't exactly blame me for being spoilt. In fact, among all my cousins (of course referring to the middle class ones), our family is the poorest :( Why? We always go to market for zi char dinner, we won't go to expensive hotel restaurants for birthday celebrations, none of us owns an iPhone(hehe), we stay in the smallest house, among the girls I don't have that many clothes, I took a banquet part-time job in the past and the list can just go on and on. Oh one more very important factor!!! My family does not have a domestic helper!!!!!!(other than mommy) Look at the environment I am in! I have not even started on the RGS/MGS neighbours I used to have.

Okay, why am I even sulking on how sucky my life is? My life isn't bad at all!!!! :D Why? Only I know the answer!! ;)

Grrr, I'm turning 21! Time to stand up on my own feet and start my prosperity line from scratch. Yeah, when I move out that is~

This was once a dream

2011-06-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

I still remember when the plans of LifeUnited were announced in January this year, I was still deciding to go or to stay. I was just kinda worried, what if things don't go smoothly and everything fails? Would LifeUnited have the resources to put up with the weekly services? Would the members still feel the presence of God and know that they have a purpose? But somehow it felt so right to let go of everything that I had and just go. To put it crudely, the words in my mind were, "Aiyah what the heck, just go lah!" Lo and behold, after 18 weeks of hard work, we had our grand opening yesterday!!!

I think the best part of the journey is moving from Yu Li Industrial Building (our first location) to Clarus Center (the place we are at now). We were in Yu Li for only 3 months and we managed to turn Clarus Center into such an awesome worship location! Indeed, God made a way for us :) Seriously, all these were beyond our capabilities.

Presenting the people I work with weekly! The most awesome music team!!

I love this picture with Nat!! :D

And of course the best Phoebe one can ever have! Hahaha. She has been doing ultimately a lot for LifeUnited! So we all owe it to her!!

This journey has just begun. I wonder what is in stored for all of us in LifeUnited :)

Ovarian Cancer

2011-06-08T14:29:00.000+08:00

Ovarian Cancer had gained me a dear patient but has also killed her. She departed 2 months ago...

Everyone needs to know about ovarian cancer and have early detection before it's too late. I think it applies to all the cancers that exists...

Woohoo! We rock!

2011-06-04T23:25:00.000+08:00

Just had SoundCard production yesterday and it was awesome!! :D I just love the group of us! Gonna miss the really fun and crazy times we had during the 3 years in SoundCard... Hehehe. Managed to steal some photoshoot photos from fb. Let me be self-obsessed!!

Ok the dressing is horrible. No choice... I wasn't really prepared for the photoshoot. Heh heh.

Yay to us!! :D

After putting on make up, they got carried away. Thinking they're in ANTM. Then I was eliminated and I'm plus-sized. Hurhur. They have been bullying me the past 3 years! But no choice... Gotta love them. Hahaha! Okay, I'm just kidding :)

The "fresh" hair and make up photo with Fadzly!!

We love our pants!!! :D

With FengYao, our lovely ex-president!!!

Looking good on stage with our colourful pants!!!

With Shikin!! Just like the good old times.... Ahhhhh.

All thanks to SoundCard, I am gonna have an audition and a first rehearsal session next week!! No words can express how thankful I am :)

Right now I just a big distraction. Hope it'll be over soon. Just need to get myself as busy as possible! Afternoon shift tomorrow! Gonna sleep tight!

My 5th Month

2011-06-01T09:13:00.000+08:00

If you were to include PRCP, this would be my 5th month in Ward 43. And somehow I have been assigned to my very own cubical alone. Of course I appreciate their great faith towards me, but I guess somehow I did let them down :/

In the midst of passing report, I just broke down. I don't know why. I just felt so lost. Crap, I just revealed my weakness to them. But seriously, am I still considered new? In terms of being able to do the job independently, am I too slow? Last night I could not stop thinking about the things I ought to have done. Well, it has been like that after a bad shift.

As the weeks and months are going by, I cannot give this "oh because I am still new" excuse anymore. Gotta mature up and get my ass moving! I still remember telling myself that by the end of June, I have to be competent already! Today is the 1st of June!

Watch out, here I come!

Hotel

2011-05-28T22:27:00.000+08:00

For the next one week, I will be very much treating my home like a hotel. Sad! Not coming back for dinner with my family for a whole week!! Madness!! Allow me to list out my activities for the next 1 week...

Sunday- AM shift, meet sc peeps to buy costume
Monday- AM shift, sc production rehearsal
Tuesday- PM shift
Wednesday- PM shift
Thursday- AM shift, rehearsal
Friday- Actual sc production
Saturday- Church service
Sunday- PM shift

On top of all these, I will have to miss the regular music practice and the inaugural LifeUtd youth service on Friday :( Oh well...

Alright I need to wake up EARLY for a morning shift. Sunday morning, sure slack one lah! Wheeee!

I'm improving, day by day :)

2011-05-25T23:21:00.000+08:00

I was just looking through my previous blog post. There was this one time during PRCP I broke down after an afternoon shift because I feel so much like a noob and could not do a simple thing like passing report to the next shift of just one patient!

Guess what, I can pass report confidently now. Yay! I am so proud of myself!

I aim to be super competent in taking cases and at least know the basics of chemo by the end of June! And by November(JCI period), I must be so good that my colleagues would rely on me for help!

Ok, I also hope I wont't get sick of working. Ugh, I think I already am. That's why I have things to look forward to always! Now that graduation is over. I'm looking forward to 9th June, where there will be a casting session!

So sleepy.......

Moi Diploma in Nursing Graduation!

2011-05-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

I believe there will be more graduations to come!! Hahaha. Anyway I had a good time seeing the people once again :) I will really miss the good old NYP times. Heh. Popped by the singers' waiting area to kay po kay po!!

Saw my KKH partner there too! Hahahhaa.

Proud to present my preceptor and a dear colleague (senior)!!! :D They are both smart people and doing an awesome job in the real working world!

My mom, who always looks after me <3

Self-taken shot with my lovely parents! Though Dad pisses me off most of the time. LOL.

The singers who sang for my graduation! Proud to know them!! :D

Love this candid shot! Heehee.

And finally, a proper shot of the people I spent most of my poly days with. They have made my 3 years a good one. I still remember before I entered Poly, I wanted to be a loner and always go home and study and have no life! But they did not allow me to! Hahaha, no choice! :P Anyway, I'm sure our friendship will last long :) Congrats guys! Oh just to mention, all of us are employed and doing a nursing-related job. Woohoo we rock!

We literally received just a piece of paper! But I'm not going to just let it all go say that "It is finished". But to me, the journey just started. 'Life' awaits me! I'm just so excited about everything! Indeed 2011 is the year of so many new beginnings :)

I can't wait and sincerely hope that I can be part of NYP's 20th anni production. NYP means something to me and what better way to express it by being involved in her 20th year celebration? Hehehe. *prays hard*

I love my LifeGroup!

2011-05-23T20:16:00.000+08:00

After service, we went to watch that pirate movie. Okay, honestly I had no choice but to go. But then the movie wasn't THAT bad except it had to be draggy the first part. I was trying all means to keep awake. Hehehe. Roy received a missed from Pb and we called back via FaceTime! Woohoo! So we were all looking at the iPad and her pretty face. It was fun! :)

The next day, no choice. Had to go to Sentosa!! And now I suffering from the sunburns. Love KerYuan's blue hair :)

The awesome people!

All got carried away~~

I would still prefer to sit on the mat, under an umbrella :D

GRADUATION TOMORROW!!! YAY!!!

:)

2011-05-20T23:43:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, the whole NYP gang celebrated Rene's birthday :)

I just miss those times where we were smaller and then she would pop by most of the time during practices. Looking forward to the upcoming production. Hopefully a bunch of us will be part of it and we can all react those times! :)

So I went back to work after 2 lovely rest days. Saw one of my patient who was previously warded. I knew her well enough to remember her name. Even her daughter called me her "god daughter" when I approached the bed. But my heart totally sank when I saw her. I seriously could not recognise her with just a glance. From being slightly chubby, she is now as skinny as her bones.

She was just lying helplessly on the bed. Her husband would be by her side doing as what she wants. She was even too weak to speak properly. I smiled at her but she just could not bring herself to smile back at all, unlike the previous time I saw her. Somehow I know that her time is coming. All I could do was to just stand by her bed and hold her hands and hers holding mine tightly. I felt so sad and was very close to tears...

Well, that's a glimpse of my life in terms of working. Nursing is really not for the faint hearted. I am still coping and learning.

Maybe that's the reason why I wanna be a palliative nurse. It trains me to be a stronger person.

I'm Crazy!

2011-05-19T00:43:00.000+08:00

Been spending hours and hours on my new toy! :D I'm so glad I finally got it!!

It will change my life! Heheheh. And thankfully I have 4 days off this week to meddle with it more!! :D Oh man, sometimes I hope I will have off days forever!!!

I shall continue to play with my new toy and be lonely forever... Ok, just kidding.

Tired but Excited!

2011-05-13T00:48:00.000+08:00

Just came back from NYP. The alumnus of SoundCard (a few of us only lah) gathered to practice for SC production! :D Our instructor came by and gave really constructive comments. Hehe. She said that we all really could harmonise. Yeah man! That is what my life is all about! Hahaha. I can't wait for the actual day! Gotta impress all the other clubs! :P

Been doing quite well in the ward I suppose. It's like my capacity is getting bigger and bigger, more responsibility, higher expectations. Even today my sister suddenly "tested" me on my patients, thankfully I could answer confidently! Can't wait to be EVEN MORE competent :) I still remember that my goal is in June! June is approaching real soon! Woohoo I can do it baby!

The next big thing I am looking forward to is my graduation!!! :DDD

A New Life At Clarus Centre

2011-05-09T19:10:00.000+08:00

So last Saturday was THE DAY a couple of us had been waiting for. Life United had her first service at her own venue!! No need to share and compromise! *selfish* Hahaha. The few days before the unofficial opening was a lil crazy. Everyone who were present were getting things done in their own areas. Well, for me I didn't have a major role anywhere so I just went everywhere! Hehe. It was fun!! :P

A glimpse of the musicians doing their thang :)

It is Monday today and I ALREADY cannot wait for the coming Saturday!! Woohoo!

I love Life United!!

Last Cycle of Chemotherapy Done

2011-05-05T11:44:00.000+08:00

One of the closest patient I had is in the process of her 11th and last cycle of chemotherapy! Yesterday, both of us just recalled how we both met. I still remember answering all her questions and doubts about chemotherapy with I was a student nurse then. And five months later, you can say that she's recovered from cancer!

For those who might be interested, she was suffering from Gestational Trophoblastic Disease.

This is what I told her yesterday:
"Now that you have gone through the 11 cycles of chemotherapy and recover from it, you can be an inspiration and motivation to the women out there who have just been diagnosed with your condition or any cancer-related problems."

I don't know~ Some women who found out they have cancer might stumble across this post via the different search engines. I hope this post can propel them forward. The most important thing is that one should have a positive mindset and the willpower to get better!

Another long weekend

2011-05-02T12:31:00.001+08:00

For the past 2 mornings, I have been waking up late. I realise it's a really bad thing! But no worries! I can't do it for the next 3 days at least! Heh.. So at least I have to thank my work for helping me to cultivate this waking up early habit! :) Too bad that I woke up late today and could not follow my parents to Mustafa (i could have got many things by following them) but Dad has been calling me like 5 times already if I wanna buy this or that. I rejected all the offers cos all that he mentioned were irrelevant items. It's good that I did so. You have no idea how much stuff we have cluttered in this place!

So the big move of Life United is happening and I'm pretty excited about it! Finally a place where I can call home and feel belonged there. Went to take a peek on Saturday and it was so difficult to leave the place. Most of us were just hitting the musical instruments and spinning on those office chairs. Simply can't wait for Saturday! :D

The hottest thing in Singapore is of course the election. It's really madness everywhere! At least it's the only time where you can anyhow shout if you agree/disagree. But as what someone mentioned, right now Singapore really "bo jin hu". Hahaha! Ok, no matter what happens, I'm just looking forward to a better Singapore. I am not entitled to vote though due to my age. I'm quite relieved about that.

Right now the whole is celebrating over O's death. I mean, it's quite scary isn't it? So much hatred from everywhere around the world. The last thing that I wanna have is people celebrating over my death. Oh dear, that's horrid. I won't reflect on the things he did but yeah, it's still sad.

Heard over the radio about Andrew Lloyd Webber's concert/musical in July! I'm pretty excited about it and I WILL WATCH IT! But just a problem of who I will watch it with. Hehe. But I love the fact that his not-so-famous musicals like "The Beautiful Game" & "Starlight Express" would be played, as seen on the poster. It's so hard to find people who can appreciate such music. I found a couple of friends though. Looking forward to talk to them about it! :D

I shall spend the rest of my PH in lieu packing my room!

Too busy to blog

2011-04-27T18:36:00.000+08:00

I've been pretty busy with I don't know what. Hahaha! But finally I'm at home after a borderline crazy day in the ward. Not forgetting the emotionally unstable patients I have been facing the past few days. They all just cry out of a sudden! I wish I could say stuff to make them happy but everyone knows that that's not possible. In order to stop crying, she herself just needs to STOP.

Anyway I went back to NYP last Thursday! Wheehee! :) Popped by to take a look at Club Crawl which was super duper awesome. "Everyday I'm shuffling" was the catch-tune. Glad to see the Sc peeps plus the juniors! I mean, they are no longer juniors! Hehe. Going back again tomorrow to take a look at the auditions. It'll be fun, I know it :D Btw, photos of the awesome singers of Sc!

Was enjoying the dance performances with Syu! But the music was too loud that I used earphones to protect my ear.

Love these 2 people!!! :D

On Saturday I tried to donate blood but I failed once again. Sigh. Actually getting kinda sick of making wasted trips there :/ But the Dr still encouraged me to go donate often -__- But anyway I was notified that I donated blood 10 times already! So I got this medal thing. At least an achievement in my life! Hahaha.

After that, I went for service!!! It was rather meaningful as we had almost the real Holy Communion doing it the way it was meant to be! It wasn't a big thing, but it was just something so simple to remind us how Jesus died on the cross for us. Yupyup... And I love these people! :D

On Easter Sunday, the church had this community outreach to the Singapore Flyer. It was good. Nice to see the smiles on their faces but I just thought they were not really qualified as they were quite well to do. Haha. Just saying... Anyway it just makes me miss my grandparents. I never ever had the chance to bring them out...

After that, I met my Poly friends as most of them were going to start work the next day! :D

Love them to bits!!! Woohoo! We're all starting work and all already! Really miss them so much! Hehee.

And lastly, supported Norashikin Imran in Anugrah 2011! Woohoo! And I'm glad she's through to the next round. More chance to proclaim that she's my friend. HAHAHAHA. A cute pose to sms/dial her number!!! :)

So yeah, I can show off that I did share the same stage with her.

I shall end abruptly here, bye!

Teamwork

2011-04-20T21:27:00.002+08:00

Teamwork is....
Not going for break but helping your colleague out when she is super busy.
Consistently asking your colleagues if there's anything you can do
Serving the darn medications to the patients even if you are not in charge of that cubical
Appreciating your colleagues when they help you out
Giving your colleague the credit when she really deserves it

Today wasn't a good day. Call bells came in non-stop and the patients really needed assistance in their ADLs. Even a frequent patient complained to my colleague that I was 'dao' as compared to when I was a student nurse. But it's not that I didn't wanna talk to her! :( I was really so busy.

Even too busy that 2 staffs broke down during the end of the shift. I feel them totally. One taking 14 patients and the other overseeing 18 patients as a new staff was taking 6 patients. And you know what? I just felt so useless. I hope I had the knowledge and skills to help them do the job.

Injured my back(bending too much) and had this really bad headache(which was relieved by panadol) after the whole shift.

As I've said a few months back during my PRCP, I want to be super duper efficient and good by June! 1 month and 1 week to improve myself!

I really hope I can be the one to help, and not to give more trouble to my colleagues.

Happy!!

2011-04-17T21:14:00.000+08:00

On Friday night, went over to the NEW Life United Church venue for life group meeting! Pretty excited about the things that are gonna happen next month! ^^ And it's amazing to see what are the things we are able to do we thought we could not do!! Presenting my awesome life group which has yet to have a name. Hehehe.

Then just this morning, a few of us woke up early in the morning to make it for the lifestyle run!!! I did have fun! Though I hated the run (lol it rhymes!). Me and Edward were like lagging behind. Hehehe. But ok lah, he's the first person who was patient with me. Cos usually when I run with people, they will just go ahead cos I seriously run too slow!

The netball game was fun! Didn't play competitive sport for such a long time! And I didn't get to shout so much too! Hahahaha. Well at least I know I am slightly fitter than yesterday. LOL!

After that I took a cab home and changed to watch what I always wanted to watch :D

Argh, watching local productions makes me aspire to be like the people in the cast!!! I thought the musical was quite good. With very Singaporean jokes, the usuals that I love watching, the beautiful costumes and the awesome cherography! I am proud to say that my good friend's brother is the cherographer!! I still remember months back, when I got an email to audition for this! But I didn't go lah. Haha. I guess I would have failed because the ensemble cast are just so good in dancing!!! Makes me wanna take up dancing somehow. Hmmm, hope I'll have dancing experiences this year in Oct/Nov ;)

My favourite actress would be the younger sister of 881. Joanna Dong is such a natural! Or maybe I like her character. The moment she was in the scene I could tell what kind of character she was playing. Urgh, she's just so good! I wanna learn from her! I realise when I act, my actions are too swift and unnatural! Hope I will have the oppurtunity to practice and improve myself.(which means more oppurtunities in performing!) Hehehe. Oh, I googled about her and saw some jazz performances (singing) she did! Nice!! And of course Sebastian Tan is one of my regular favourite. A pure comedian. Too bad he was one of the gods so his singing did not charm me at all. Hahaha.

Argh, after watching this, I am so so crazy about musical theatre!!! Hope that I'll have the chance to perform soon! ^^V

Life Still Goes On

2011-04-16T12:29:00.000+08:00

15 April 2011 will be one of the days I will remember.

RIP my dear. I will miss coming up to your bedside and asking you the usual questions.

The one thing I regret is that I didn't have the chance to pray together with you and tell you that God loves you very much.

At least you're enjoying everything that's in heaven right now :)

You have made me love my patients (oncology ones) more. I will continue to help them out with compassion.

Love,
Maria

Working life is starting to get stagnant

2011-04-12T21:30:00.000+08:00

Working office hours the past few weeks has been driving me crazy! All I could think of after work is to have a good sleep and prepare for the following day's work. Thankfully nursing is a shift job! It gets exciting to me at least!! I can reach home early, sleep & wake up late at time and countdown to my night shifts and celebrate when night shifts are over! I hope I won't regret saying this... Heh.

On Sunday, went to Qian Hu Fish Farm for the fish spa! Initially it was a farm outing but we end up visiting one farm(qian hu) cos of the crazy jam clogged up at Lim Chu Kang area due to the Qing Ming season. At least I got my butt out in the sun!! :)

You can probably identify the individuals who could not stand the fishes' nibbling.

Celebrated Ker Yuan's Birthday as well! She just turned 18 ONLY! I wish I could become 18 again and go through everything I've been through once again :) Happy Birthday! If you see this.... Argh, didn't managed to take a photo with my BFF's sister :/

Another exciting thing is this!!!!!!!!

Beautiful desktop isn't it? :D Mind you, NONE of the things were new. All scrapes from my store room or living room. Except for the hardware, which is performing really fast on Windows 7. In the past I was dying to have a lappy and now I'm so happy to have this desktop! Gotta maintain it though. Gonna collect a lot of dust in no time!

Ok time to have a good rest! Working a full AM shift tomorrow! Hope they will still make me a floater! Heeee!

Back @ 43!

2011-04-07T20:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday afternoon I worked for half-shift in 43 with my SN uniform for the first time! Happy to see smiles on people's faces when they saw me. Just that they commented that I grew fatter. Sigh :( From that moment, I knew I had to start on a diet plan. Diet plan in progress btw! :) I can do it! I can do it!

Hmm, I'm still trying to adapt and pick up some of the things because I have not been touching all these for a whole month! A whole month of not thinking anything related to nursing. I could see that my hand movements were a little slower. Need more practice to get used to it! Heeee!!

It was great seeing some of the previous patients. I'm not cursing them alright! It's just that they come once in awhile usually for their chemo! Of course they were happy to see me as much as I was happy to see them!! Nursing your "usual" customers just makes things so much easier! But once their regime is finished, maybe I won't get to see them anymore :(

So basically I wasn't assigned to do anything but walk around and help out. Now looking at my SN colleagues, I feel so stressed! :/ Because they look terribly stress and I don't understand 20-30% of what they are doing. HOW?!?!?! I hope they'll give me time to learn more and not bombard me with difficult cases. Nah, I don't think they will be so mean. Besides, I can always feedback :)

My carelessness just sabo-ed me yesterday. Was supposed to write a certain result on 2 different places. And I happen to write them differently. After I knocked of yesterday, the in-charged called and asked me which was the correct result. OMG I felt so bad. But thankfully she is so nice! She even apologised because she called me during off-duty. Ok, that made me feel even more bad! Hahaha. But yeah, she's so nice and competent. Hope I can be like her one day! :D

One thing I learned about myself these 2 days. I LOVE WOMEN ABOVE 65 YEARS OLD! No joke, I'm naturally attracted to them! Can't wait to see them tomorrow! Heeheeehee.

I have 4 more weekends to enjoy

2011-04-03T22:25:00.000+08:00

Just saw my orientation timetable, and by week 6 we gotta start our shift work already! Tomorrow will be week 2 already :( Hopefully my very nice sister can give me day off during the weekends I really need them :D Anyway, these few girls just came back from Bangkok! SO JEALOUS! I like this photo cos it's specky! Yes, they read my blog, that's why I'm posting this...

The week will be another series of lectures and Wednesday I will be going up to the ward! Can't wait actually! I mean for usual staff there's orientation to the surroundings and all. I wonder would sister or some other staff show me or will they just ask me to be floater? But anyway it'll be good to see my colleagues! :D

On Friday I managed to meet up some of my secondary school friends. Esp the ones who I didn't get to see after graduating from BBSS! It was a good catch up time :) Thanks Huey for organising!

An epic photo! Only the 3 of us know why... Some people just don't change :)

After another awesome Life United service, my life group went to watch Sucker Punch!

All I can say that the movie is a mix of Inception, Shutter Island, Street Fighter and Alice in Wonderland!! Worth it lah. The girls are quite hot! GIRLS RULE! :D

Weekdays and here again :( Sianzzzzz. Hehe, yet to collect my pressie from blood bank and to donate blood. Ok, I must keep that in mind...

My Career Awaits Me

2011-03-30T22:36:00.000+08:00

On my very last day of holiday before I started work, Syu came over to do covers! Yesa! I like singing with her because she can harmonise too! Posted the videos on youtube and facebook. I know it wasn't perfect and really really good, but all I know is that we both had fun! And we learn so much more on our strengths and weaknesses.

So today I reported for work. Jeez! Somehow I just wish I could have back my student status :/ It's like we're no longer covered or sheltered by the school! We're on our own! So a photo with my PRCP buddy in our staff nurse uniform! :D

PeiWen has been happily working in MOT for the past 1 month. Hmm, today I suddenly thought to myself why on Earth did I choose one of the busiest and craziest ward? I kinda 'woke up' and freaked out. Then I remembered all the way back when I was in year 2, I kinda had the secret desire to work there one day. Who knew, I was posted there for my PRCP and now, I'm going to be a staff there! There must be a reason!!

Tomorrow's programme will be almost exactly what we did during the orientation of PRCP :/ I hope I can survive and keep my eyes open!

Finally, a hike!

2011-03-28T19:51:00.000+08:00

So yesterday I woke up early in the morning to go for a hike/walk around MacRitche reservoir. Well, I was very much in the mood of ugly faces and the sun was shining so brightly, so that explains my face.

HuiYu! One day we go there ok! I won't mind walking the same trail again!

Anyway I have one big blister at the bottom of my little toe. Oh man, I wore nike sports shoes lor! But my Dad got them from Indonesia. Hahaha. Have to limp the next few days and prolly can't wear my heels just yet :/

Submitted some stuff to my HR and collected my nametag! OMGOMG STAFF NURSE LEH! Can see the transition. From student nurse to staff nurse! Woohoo! If you ask me, I'm quite excited about reporting for work this Wednesday! Can't wait to see my colleagues once again! Hope they'll be happy to see me! And then, I'm gonna start over a new leaf. I'm gonna be extremely hardworking, tactful, smart, observant, nice and smiley!

My career awaits me!

DC's Moving On 2011

2011-03-26T01:15:00.001+08:00

I admit that I did put on some weight! :( Time to eat less baby!

So anyway, I attended DC's production! All I can say is that I finally understood the existence of DC!(oh, btw DC is Dance Company in NYP) The dance club shows all about putting your emotions in dance. It was the 6th item I think, that impacted me. Seeing the dancer's intense facial expression, body language and executing her steps with true emotions. Ah, it was beautiful. Really beautiful.

The last item was very creative! Using balloons!

Presenting HsinRui! The president of DC in a very cute and pretty outfit! I observed her and all, and I love her consistent big smile!

Took this cos of Ms Edelweiss! Didn't see her for quite some time!! She said that she'll be around during graduation! So hopefully I can catch and take a photo with her! :DDD

Oh but before that, I went to do some administrative stuff so that I can start work next week! Me with my conferment of diploma! Feel so happy lah! Went through so much to get those few documents.

Today I looked at some piece of paper and smiled :) Well, I won't wanna give myself false hope, like I always do. But I really hope what I saw is true :) Gotta wait for 2 months to find out...

This time, I got really want I wanted! :DDD I think...

And so...

2011-03-24T23:26:00.000+08:00

... looks like I wasn't meant to have it.

I don't know why I am doing this to myself! But I just feel so disappointed about myself. Have I been giving myself false hope? Maybe I'm just over confident, way too much that I think I'm better than what I actually am. But was I no better 2 years ago? I still remember during a rehearsal when both of us were only in the room, she encouraged me to consider taking singing lessons. Like achieving until grade 8 that kind. When one asks you to take a step further in your thing, does it mean that you're good? Or bad? And then 2 years later, I wasn't considered, among 20 plus, only 4 were chosen. Actually I don't think I'll be affected if other people auditioned me, but her being the judge just made things worse.

Ok, it's just an audition. Maybe I wasn't prepared? Maybe the song wasn't really my type? Maybe there's a reason why it is better for me to back off and concentrate more in my career rather than to attend all the intensive rehearsals and go all crazy and tired.

Well, I would wanna look at the bright side. I need not run about during my actual graduation. I can sit nicely beside LingLi(if we're allocated according to reg no) and camwhore with our gowns. I can apply for 1 day off instead of many days that might be used for other schools or rehearsals. And the list can just go on...

Maybe this kinda thing isn't my thing anymore. Forget it Maria, you have your nursing career ahead of you...

In 24 hours, I'll be preparing to go to the airport!

2011-03-23T02:14:00.000+08:00

The very cute tortoise Malcolm's landlady has. But it's like hiding right now after this clever Malcolm carried it into his room! I don't know leh. It's not moving at all. It'll be pretty sad if it dies! It's like 42 years old you know!!!

So results were out and the results which consisted of my OT, A&E and geron posting was a B+ (yay) and my PRCP which was Amazingly good! (yay) Actually all these don't matter. What matters most is that my final GPA is finally a 3.1!

I still remember I also got 3.1 for my first semester but it drop and didn't go back up ever since. I was just trying so darn hard throughout the months. I have never done so much self-disciplined mugging my whole life. The exams results turned out to be alright, but that wasn't enough to pull up my average. (funny though that the 2 semester exams which were sandwiched between musical rehearsals were the ones who helped pull up the average, but only a bit) So, all thanks to my final semester grades :)

Whatever lah! I CAN GRADUATE! I CAN REGISTER TO BECOME A STAFF NURSE! :D

I can't wait for my graduation! Oh man, heard that graduation audition(for singing) is round the corner. I really hope I would be given the chance to sing. I know I ain't the best among the talented people in school, but I guess it'll mean so, so much to me. It's like I've never been awarded for doing well or being involved for any major leadership thing my whole poly life. But being able to sing for graduation beats all these things. Well, I still need to compete. People just reminded me that if I'm fated to have it, I'll have it.

I hope I'm fated to have it.

2 more days to HSH!

2011-03-22T05:09:00.001+08:00

Wow! The moment is finally coming! I am finally going back home! Alright, I guess it's very mean and selfish to say that because people want their holiday but they can't blah blah. I must say that I had a good time in one way or another here! :)

Hmmm, maybe I am not meant to have long holidays. Or maybe I'm the kind who needs really good friends to have an enjoyable holiday :) Yeah, that reminds me. My poly friends are having a trip to Bangkok on the day I start work!! :( So jealous! 4 girls, having the time of their lives! I know you girls are reading this so Bon Voyage and enjoy yourselves. Don't forget to get me something :P

So I have a really long list of things to do when I return! I hate the fact that I have only 1 week to do whatever I want before I start work and be a slave to my patients. Hahaha.

To be honest, I'm pretty excited about work! It's like stepping into a new phase in my life! :D Well, I don't really have the worried feeling because I think I'll have a very high chance in going back to Ward 43. Which means I'll be happy to see my colleagues! And I guess I got PRCP to thank. At least I won't be like a newbie newbie but at least I know very much how things work there. All I'm hoping for right now is that my colleagues won't dislike me due to my poor performance.

Hohoho, not forgetting pay day! Working hard and getting the 'reward' on the 25th of every month! Oh, and all the frequent patients are gonna see me in a different uniform! I'll be happy to know that they are proud of me! :)

Hmmm, 2 thoughts I have in my mind right now...

"How do I really feel?"
"What if I took the other path?"

Hoping to find the real answer in my dreams.

Germany Adventures

2011-03-21T18:51:00.000+08:00

This is the reason why I am growing FAT. Hehehe. As we returned from Spain, Malcolm rented a car on Wednesday. We for a road trip with ShouHeng and his parents :D This is what I had for lunch!

Drove through beautiful scenery and to an outlet shopping area. Ended the trip at Ikea buying a lot of stuff!

The next day was ShouHeng's birthday! Had lunch in a Japanese restaurant! Nice!!

ShouHeng's girlfriend, Maylis!

That night we took a night bus all the way to Hamburg! It was a 9 hour ride. Only slept for like 3 hours or so? But this was the moment I had been waiting for!!! :D In the morning went to the box office to get myself a Tarzan ticket for that night! YESSSSSSS! Paid 30euros for 90euros worth of seat! WOOHOO!

Met up with Malcolm's friend Mia and Kia and their family. They are Singaporeans who stays in Hamburg! They own a shop! Saw the lives they led. Very simple and nice. Maybe I would be like them? Hehe.

At night proceeded back to the theatre and watched Tarzan! Oh man! Nice! I teared at the first part because the effects were simply too beautiful! Stunts were amazing and the actors were excellent! Even though I know nuts about German, I enjoyed myself. After the musical, went to the train station to catch our train to Basel, which is way down South. So, night sleeping train. Malcolm got us first class and the experience was wonderful! See, stairs to your cabin!!

Sleeping so comfortably...

We were served breakfast on board.... Nice!

Arrived at Totnau and had black forest cake in the midst of the black forest!!

Hohoho! I finally did this!!! :D Hassenhorn alpine coaster!!

Sitting on the chairlift going up up up!

I love the ride!! If Bukit Timah Hill could have this, I will ride it every week!!

The video of the ride...

Took the bus back and enjoyed the Black Forest covered with snow.

Yesterday, went to meet up Singaporeans studying in Germany for a hike. Gosh, I have never been so tired my whole life! Was panting like crazy. Need to train up on my stamina!! :D

Us taking a break!!

Ended the day at a festival. Nice atmosphere...

Hohoho. Pork knuckles!!

So, wine was ordered and I was 'mabok' after dinner. Urgh. Yuck yuck yucks! I'm never gonna take alcohol with food!!! Hate the feeling! Then we went out of the tent and enjoyed a 12 minute long firework display. Ahhhh.

Finally did all the things I wanted to do here :) Home in 3 days!!! :D

Spain Trip

2011-03-17T06:04:00.000+08:00

Arrived in Madrid. I totally love the hostel! The view overlooks a traffic junction! I guess I really like to see busy things outside my window. Like my own room, overlooking the coffeeshop.

Malcolm commented that the trains in Spain are well-mantained and I totally agree with him!

After exploring abit of Madrid on the same day, we have to wake up really early the following morning to head to Malaga. It was a 3 hour train ride. From there, we took a 45 minute Metro ride to Fuengirola. This hotel was the best amongst all the hotels/hostels we stayed.

Fuengirola is by the sea. It felt really good to smell the salt and feel the breeze of the sea.

Had Fish N Chips with beer!!

Next day we went back to Malaga to visit the shopping areas and the old town. Overview from the hill!

Then, we went to Gibraltar the following day. Gibraltar is really a small country, and she is part of the United Kingdom. They use the British Pounds as their currency. The landmark would be this slab of rock. From almost every part of the country, one can see the peak of the rock! This is from the south of the country.

And this is taken at the border of Spain and Gibraltar.

The next day we took a 7 hour train ride to Santiago. There's this church here, where people walk from countries as far as France or Germany. And you can see the moment of joy when they arrive at their final destination.

My favourite thing to do is the feed the birds! So I always put aside leftover bread after a meal. Hehe.

Next day we went to A Corona and see see lor... I was kinda getting sick of everything already. Hahaha.

It's called the Hercules tower or something...

At night we took the sleeping train to proceed back to Madrid. I had a room to myself whereas Malcolm had to squeeze with like 3 other men. Yay!

Arrived in Madrid and had Churros!

Went to a theme park and thank God the weather was awesome!!! This was the scariest roller coaster ride ever!! The initial part would be going vertically upwards then a 90 degree turn upside down! I was so terrified and closed my eyes throughout.

The leg-hanging wasn't so bad even though it had loops and cock screws. So you can see a smile! :DD Actually I was feeling kinda nauseous at that moment.

Towards the evening we went to watch bull fight.

Little did I know that bulls would be killed and humiliated in front of the whole stadium during a bull fight. The red cloth thing is to make the bull grumpy and all, but eventually the bull fighter will stab a sword all the way in into the bull's back. Sad right! I started to youtube bull fights and saw a couple of incidences the bull fighter being seriously injured or killed. I felt kinda happy because bull fighters are so heartless when they kill those innocent bulls! But I can't say much lah, because I eat beef. Heh... Anyway this has been a tradition for so many years and local old men love watching it.

Next day walked around Madrid. Was tired tired tired. Hehe..

So I'm back here in Germany! For those who are following me in twitter, you can see the frustration I have about my brother. But I am so serious. I ain't exaggerating.. Nevermind.

ONE MORE WEEK TO HOME! OLE!

Lazy & Tired

2011-03-16T05:44:00.001+08:00

Just returned from my 10 day tour in Spain. Urgh, so tired. I promise myself to blog about it when I'm back in Singapore. I have to blog, so that I'll remember what I did when ever I would wanna look back :D

An interesting photo to share though...

I don't find delight in rowing boats. Hahaha.

Alright I totally do not feel comfortable in my brother's room like totally. I mean he's like freaking 27 and he doesn't care about being neat and clean. No one will understand. Well, if I were to be even more anal, it would be all thanks to Malcolm :) Oh, and right now I will not be able to tolerate people who are above 20% messy. Well, I can say that I'm about 19% messy. Hehehe.

Sian, I miss my room right now :( Nevermind. ONE MORE WEEK TO HOME SWEET HOME!! :D

What's In My Mind...

2011-03-10T03:00:00.000+08:00

I'm not gonna share what I've been doing the past few days but I'm gonna share what I have been thinking about! So I was on the coach and there was so much to think about, and guess what came into my mind...

My Secondary School Days.

Well to be honest, I really miss the days that I could wear my Bukit Batok Secondary School uniform. I started to recall all the nitty gritty details of what I did when I was an adolescent. From the early flag raising ceremony, to the exact place I would place my pencilcase/waterbottle on my desk to the amount of books I put under my table daily to the canteen food I usually eat!

I miss those moments. If only I can go back to the past and experience all the secondary school nonsense once again. But I know that won't happen. Haha.

When I go back, I will review all the photos I took back then. Argh, why do I only have a week in Singapore to enjoy before I start work? :/

Italy - Rainy Always

2011-03-06T02:38:00.001+08:00

Just as we touched down from Rimini airport, it rained and rained and rained. We had to hibernate in the hotel as we woke up at 4am to catch the plane on that day.

Explored Rimini, and it seemed very much like a dead place.

Causing a frown on my face. Hahaha.

The next day we went to Ravenna a town up north. Well, it was slightly better I must say.

And what's not having Gelato in Italy? Heee. Though it was really cold, it was a must try.

Towards the evening we went to Rimini's shopping centre. And also tried my first Pizza in Italy! It was really good, fresh from the oven. Ingredients were picked by Malcolm. Pizza Hut just spoils the whole Pizza experience in my opinion.

Next day we went to San Marino, a micro state. With only population of 16k and is located up on the mountains, so what do you expect? Snow.

Heaps and heaps of snow. Nice to look at, not nice to experience. The snow all made my feet numb and I could feel the coldness through my jeans!

Funny picture of a car getting a ticket. There's obviously a reason why the windscreen and the number plate were not covered with snow...

The dinners we survived on. SUPERMARKET FOOD. They taste really good and of course at an affordable price!! :D

Finally our last day we went to Bologna, a really big city. Did some shopping and surprisingly we spent about 7 hours there!! It was more dangerous though. Malcolm could not make me stop laughing with his childish rubbish.

So yeah, that sums up Italy! Well if you're a fan of simply eating and shopping, Italy IS the place for you!!!

Ciao!!!

2011-03-02T02:11:00.001+08:00

Greetings from Rimini! Well, the holiday mood isn't that right becasuse it has been raining and it will continue for the next few days. So cold and wet! Urgh. I miss sunny Singapore. HAHAHAHA!

Anyway some photos to share :) T1 in Changi Airport has been nicely done up! :) The toilet over looks the airplanes!

After my 13-hour flight, I safely arrived in Frankfurt Airport. Met Malcolm in Heidelberg... Still looking FAT. Hahaha.

Brought me for 85cents Latte Macchiato. CHEAP LEH! And until now, I already had like 3 cups of that from 3 different cafes. Looks like I'm gonna grow fat from all the milk @_@

Heidelberg is really a beautiful city. Love their building structure. Nothing there is modern! Outside may look vintage, but inside would definitely classy and new.

Met ShouHeng for lunch at his university's canteen...

Interesting thing is that the buffet is weighed!

Visited the castle, which is on the hill, which overlooks the whole city!

I wonder how on earth did the French managed to destroy parts of the castle because the whole structure really looks tough!

Had to take this mountain tram up. Went further up to the peak!

Awsome view, right? :D

Met Adeline for salad dinner... I never want to touch salad ever again!

I will update my Italy trip when the trip ends. Hehe. Cos we didn't do much other than going to supermarkets, looking at the city centre (which totally looks like a ghost town) and looking at how people protest here.

Stay tuned for more!!! :D

Graduation In Progress!

2011-02-27T09:18:00.000+08:00

Well I have not received my certificate officially but everything has been done! :D 3 years of diploma studies. Wow, I've come a long way. I just regret that I didn't work hard enough to achieve some academic award. I guess I'm just not cut for it~ It was great seeing my nursing classmates! Woohoo! We all fought the battle and won!~

Hmmm at least I did meaningful things in NYP? Like performing many many times! :D All thanks to SoundCard! And I'm looking forward to even more as in alumni! (hehehe)

So, I'll be departing tomorrow night on my great adventure in Germany, Italy and Spain. Been trying to keep it low profile but I guess I cannot not tell anyone and just disappear for a month right? I'm kinda looking forward! :D I hope the pimples on my face will disappear due to the cold weather over there. Ah, going back there will give me fond memories of my great adventures I had in 2008...

I still remember that I had to travel from Frankfurt Airport all the way to Malcolm's place in Ludwigshafen. What made me scared was communicating with the ticket seller (poor english and scolded me somemore!) and missing or taking the wrong the train (if i had miss it, i had to wait for another hour!). So if YOU (certain individual) think that I am street-stupid, think again! I know it's very blunt of me to say this but I am already trying really hard not to boast. So please stop behaving like a smartass.

And for the pass 2 days I've been kinda furious about the packing and errands to do. The worse thing is that I have to actually accommodate to someone that I'm doing a favour to! Well, I can't blame those ______ (censored nationality) rich kids. I guess their parents didn't even teach them how to say "Thank You". Eventually I am still too nice, I have to stop by City Hall station on my way to the airport. Wanna make him travel to the airport to pass me the stuff but nevermind lah!

Not relating to the above matter, but it also irks me when someone asks me to do a favour on another person's behalf. Like hello!? Why must you make someone else ask me? Can't you just open your golden mouth and ask me personally? Not referring to anyone in particular though. Next time I will say 'No' if I encounter such a situation.

Alright that's enough ranting for a blog post. Anyway the highlights for this holiday to me would be going down the alpine coaster and watching Tarzan the musical! WHEEEEEE! Yes, I thank God I am blessed with parents who can assist me financially and a brother who just got a job there!

Gonna make a video diary for my trip! It'll be exciting! Hehehe. Ok, time to have a good rest before suffering from all the jet-lag!

To-do List

2011-02-23T11:06:00.000+08:00

Here's a list of things I wanna do after my PRCP and before I start work :)

1) Donate blood
Tried donating on Thursday, but they said I had low Hb level. DARN!!! Proud to say that I've donated 10 times! :D And I have also done blood transfusion for my patients!

2) Go walk around MacRitchie and explore the paths
Wanted to do that for a LONG time. But I didn't find time to do so. Now with a car, hehe. I guess it's easier to travel there too! :P I can shed some fats at the same time! Go alone or with someone? That's if I can actually find someone who is willing to go with me. Hehe.

3) To sing and play "King of Anything"
I can already play, but I can't coordinate my hands and singing. But still, practice makes perfect! I CAN DO IT AND I AM AWESOME!! :D

4) Give my room a major makeover
More of like clearing the books and stuff that I don't need anymore. The more I keep things, the more clutter there is :/

Ok, btw I would only have a week to complete all these things. Means my holiday is only a week long?! :O

4 more days!

2011-02-20T21:58:00.000+08:00

Yes, 4 more working days, to be exact!!!! Gonna face the moment of truth soon. I seriously I won't get a 'C' for my PRCP :( NEVERMIND! Anyway skills and all that are 30%, but your work attitude blah blah is worth 70% so everything should be fine? Heeee. But yeah, tomorrow I will know the result of where I will end up in (i hope is ward 43. i mean, 99% should be ward 43. heee) Then at least I'll be looking forward to go back rather than being scared all over again about the new colleagues.

What I'm looking more is that I can have a holiday! I need not work for a month! Hohoho!!

Just a random photo :)

Yay!! Always looking forward for the weekly services of Life United! Amazing journey currently! Hope it'll just get better and better!!!

Right now, my room has a djembe, a bass guitar, an acoustic guitar, a ukelele and keyboard!! It's like a mini music room!! Looks like I really need to reserve a room to just make music in my future home!! I don't mind sleeping in my living room~ Hahaha.

I was learning some songs on the keyboard! Not easy! I realise my left and right coordination is really poor! I also lack patience. Hahaha. But nevermind, I'm learning slowly! :) I just love my ears. Heeeee.

Ok, I shall try to sleep even though there is a very noisy dinner and dance opposite my block.

The Last Lap

2011-02-17T19:12:00.002+08:00

Wow, I've really come this far. Since 6 Dec 2010 until now. I'm left with 6 more working days in Ward 43! But yesterday was one of the most horrible day ever. You know I really hate all these lab results thingy(cos i am poor in memorising numbers) and apparently all the patients under my care had lab results to trace. So I was passing and the low confidence just struck me while passing halfway. I hate those moments where everyone would be keeping quiet, while I had to stammer my way through. I guess my SSN saw my flaw and she verbally reminded me to buck up. Haha. What made things worse was that my preceptor was busy doing something else so no one was there to save me. Boohoo.

I kinda rushed home after work too and began to realise that there were certain things I didn't complete before going home. I hate that guilty feeling @_@

Well, I hope all the negative records are erased from the staff's mind. Going for my night shift soon! If I'm not wrong, there should be full house. Good luck to me!

Anyway yesterday night the music team had an awesome time of jamming! Ahh, makes me love harmonising once again. If I ever strike 4D or Toto, I'm so gonna build a jamming studio then we could just jam all night long! If only.... Hahaha.

The only thing I'm looking forward to now are my weekends! Great meet up with friends and other stuff to do! Wheeee! :)

Reminder to self: Exactly next week would be my last day at work!! WHOOOOOHOOOO!

Vanessa's Wedding

2011-02-15T22:53:00.000+08:00

A couple of shots taken during the dinner at Conrad :)

My nursing classmate LuJie :)

The bride busy sorting out things. Looking radiant with the evening sun beaming at her!!

Before the first march in... The moment where I would usually tear. Hahaha.

My lovely lecturer, Sister Jennifer!!! Miss those SJH times!

I've learnt that getting married is REALLY a tiring thing! Phew! Anyway, I've got an awesome idea of what I wanna do IF I do ever get married. Muahahaha. It'll be guarantee plus chop one of a kind :D

Happy Belated Valentine's and Friendship Day to all. Oh lala~! I can't wait for the 27th of Feb!!

Too Much To Take

2011-02-14T01:14:00.000+08:00

I had really a sleepless weekend. But at least the memories will stay in my heart forever :)

Firstly, Jing departed Singapore on Saturday morning. Gonna miss eating all the unhealthy food with her :(

We had poloroid shots taken, thanks to KerYuan :)

Life United's first service was amazing! I can't believe we can do all the great things with just the limited number of people and resources we have. All thanks to God for being the main provider! Indeed, without Him, the things we do are of no purpose. I'm really looking forward to the upcoming months to come! Everything's gonna be great!

Vanessa's wedding was definitely a touching moment for me.

And I shall pen down the rest of my thoughts in my diary :) Time to sleep!!

PRCP

2011-02-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

Just a peek at the people I see almost daily :D

The PRCP students of Ward 43! :) Wathi is leaving already :( But it's 2 more weeks for PeiWen and myself!!! AND WE SURVIVED! YESH!

And Miss Ang Ying Zhi!! Note: I was trying to strangle her. Ok just trying to be funny :/

Sigh I hate my hair when I work. Is there any other way I can keep it really neat and look hawt in my nursing uniform? Kidding kidding! Hehehehe.

Oh man, 50 plus more days and I will step in with a Staff Nurse uniform! Big responsibility and gotta have good knowledge! Hope all will go well :) And I know it will! Bring it on man! What's doesn't kill me makes me stronger! :D